Just signed up a few minutes ago. So many years, 25 plus keeping it locked inside and not talking about it has left me beat down. Went for help for the first time yesterday and was told I have PTSD go fiqure, LOL such a brilliant doctor. I found this site in attempt to talk to others that can relate like no one else can. Have read a couple post and we all seem to feel the same, no matter where and when we were there.