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[Cerridwen]

Hello,

After a few years of recovery and feeling like a more normal person, I feel like I'm slipping again. I had some recent trauma (18 months) that was fairly significant that I thought maybe because I've already recovered from severe PTSD and I'm less naive and more aware, that I would be ok from it.

Now I'm not sure. I've recently started to feel like I'm being crushed or suffocating- that it's hard to breathe. I can't really date I don't think, and I feel like there is either no future there or even if there is, I don't want it. There's elements of hopelessness in there that is so deep and painful that you don't think there's anyway to escape from it. I have some memory lapses or if I'm speaking I forget words and I often feel outside of my body or surprised that I'm speaking. I'm not sure if that makes sense to anyone...

I have recently moved back to the USA after over a decade overseas and I am only just figuring out the healthcare and navigating the system here. I do work full time, I excercise, I've tried to date (and can't) and I started to see a therapist. I don't know how to talk about or explain how I'm feeling to new people and my story feels overwhelmingly complex and long.

I am hoping maybe I can find some kind of support or community that I can get involved with that will help me through this.

Cerridwen.

 

[sedna]

Hello,

After a few years of recovery and feeling like a more normal person, I feel like I'm slipping...

Hello Cerridwen,

I just joined up here the other day and its helped me a lot already. The reason I did it was the same situation you mentioned. I feel like my life story is impossible and I just want to be alone. I was doing better and then all of the sudden I regressed and I'm not sure why. I've joined forums before but only lasted an hour or so then forget about it. This time its a little different, it could be me, or this forum is better, either way its good. I dont know how old you are, but I cant date either and the younger you are, the weirder people think that is and its hard to explain. Just remember that you dont have to explain it. Lots of interesting people here to relate to, just take care until the relapse passes, and Im sure it will.

 

[Cerridwen]

Hello Cerridwen,

I just joined up here the other day and its helped me a lot already. The reason I did i...

Thanks for your reply. If you don't mind- what have you done or found here that has really helped?
When I first developed PTSD I did use some forums but I haven't used them for a long time, despite trying at various times.

Thank you again.

 

[Deleted member 28740]

Welcome to both of you.

I find the journals very helpful. All individual, but you'll find one's that resonate.

 

[sedna]

Thanks for your reply. If you don't mind- what have you done or found here that has really helped?
W...

I have a few specific struggles at the moment that are very intense. I looked through all of the forum posts and just went through all of them looking for similar experiences and article posts in media also. Some of these went back years, and it was still helpful. Also, I really had no intention of communicating much. I was going to sneak in all PTSD Ninja like, get my comforting info, and sneak back out. Unfortunately, as soon as I got the nerve to do an intro post people just started saying hello. I went from feeling sick about talking to strangers, to not being able to get off the forum and shut up. That was just two days ago so I'm sure I'll get a grip soon.

Honestly, I am not easy to make comfortable and for some reason I find it easy here, Im not sure why. I suggest that you look at specific things that you struggle with and just research the forums for helpful comments or articles, and start a dialogue about what concerns you in chats or forum.

I've gone to such great lengths to not have to explain that I dont date....I'm not kidding, I tell people I'm gay. When I'm around gay people I tell them I'm straight. I have no ability to date and I dont want to be asked about it. That right there, is an example of how you get started in finding someone who understands. I thank you for making that comment, because I wouldnt have shared that if you hadnt.

I dont know why a relapse can hit that hard or last that long, just dont give in to hopeless over it, it isnt hopeless.

 

[RavenGirl]

@Cerridwen , @coco9 , I'm probably older than both of you as I'll be 48 this December but I think what I'm saying will make sense to you both. I also went through the, "I don't want to date" phase.

I was 18 years old when that happened to me. I didn't even know I had PTSD at the time. I just remember saying I was swearing off men, never dating again, or getting married. When we go through the traumas we go through I think that's a very normal reaction.

Well, long story short, I am now married for 27 years!! So our bodies, hearts, and minds can heal. Until that time that you feel / if you feel ready to date just do what you need to do to get better. It's your life and there's no right or wrong way to live it and you don't need to explain your choice to anyone.

Welcome to the forum, I hope you find the people and information as helpful as I have. ♡ :tup:;):hug: Raven

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Welcome to the forums :hug: I hope this spot helps you. It's extremely valuable as a result of the mass measure of individuals who feel comparative and understand eachother. There is a great deal of counsel and backing to be found here :) I trust this stunning group helps you as much as it helped me, reading all the similar stories, and taking in a lot of support along the way. Hugs in the event that you accept :hug:

 

[Cerridwen]

Welcome to the forums :hug: I hope this spot helps you. It's extremely valuable as a result of the mass...

Thank you. I hope so too.

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome to the forum! :)

 

[intothelight]

@Cerridwen Welcome to the forum! :)

Take your time and focus on your own healing. Perhaps after some time and healing on your part you may find you are able to socialize or perhaps date more comfortably. I hope you find the information and support available on this site beneficial to your healing.