Help Would Be Appreciated.

[Acus]

Shall explain my situation first. My partner was involved in a rtc on his motorbike, I was following on mine so watched the whole crash and the aftermath.

He is physically fine apart from a broken collar bone and mentally doesn't seem to have been affected by the crash. Me on the other hand I'm a mess, after a few trips to the docs I'm waiting for appointment to start therapy for PTSD.

I feel like the accident is my fault, I wanted to go out that day and he was unsure and didn't really want to.

 

[Acus]

Couldn't figure out how to edit. I havn't yet figured out a way to tell him how I feel. And should I tell him how I feel? I then feel selfish as it was he who came off and was injured I've just come away a emotional wreck. We havnt really sat and talked about it yet as I don't know if its the right thing to do.

 

[Uta]

Witnessing can be as traumatic as living it - you can't control anything- all you can do is watch and wait for whatever's going to happen to happen. It makes sense you would be emotionally effected. I say, if you are comfortable and the relationship is a supportive one, share your feelings. Your partner may have feelings, memories, etc that they would like to share as well. It is important to open the lines of communication now, in order to keep them open through your healing process.

 

[Jeset]

It's great that you're seeking out therapy, that's a big step in the right direction. The guilt over what happened is a common part of PTSD. The accident was not your fault. It may take some time and hard work to stop blaming yourself but you did nothing wrong. You asked to do something that both you and your partner enjoy. I'm sorry it wasn't the fun time you meant it to be, I'm sorry your partner was injured and that you're struggling with the emotions of seeing them hurt. Your reaction really speaks of the depth of love and concern you have for your partner. It's quite painful to see a loved one in pain or in danger, your reaction is quite reasonable.

 

[Acus]

Thanks everyone, still not been able to sit down and talk with him yet. Everything just seems like it's getting on top of me with my anxiety issues (always had trouble with it). Hopefully can start going in the right direction soon.