hi, I guess the title sums it up.I have managed for years to 'wipe out' the sexual abuse done by a childhood friends parents. However a year ago I was attacked ( pre meditated) in my bedroom waking up to a man with a weapon coming at me. I managed to 'cope', as well as trying to move countries and numerous other family, relationship problems I was having at the time. However now over time this event impacted me severely and brought up my past traumas that I had keps so well hidden.
Now I don t even recognise me.. I was once a social, happy go lucky person. Now I am someone who shakes constantly, scratches compulsively, has panic attacks, wakes up on the floor losing time and has a husband who thinks I need to just 'get over it', only because he cares, but I m not sure anybody who has not been through these feelings can possibly understand. I feel isolated and alone in a new country but desperately trying to overcome this. I have read many postings on these forums on the periphery and have taken a step forward to joining this site in the hopes that I can come to accept that this is really happening to me and that eventually I can overcome it. So.. hello to you all. x
Now I don t even recognise me.. I was once a social, happy go lucky person. Now I am someone who shakes constantly, scratches compulsively, has panic attacks, wakes up on the floor losing time and has a husband who thinks I need to just 'get over it', only because he cares, but I m not sure anybody who has not been through these feelings can possibly understand. I feel isolated and alone in a new country but desperately trying to overcome this. I have read many postings on these forums on the periphery and have taken a step forward to joining this site in the hopes that I can come to accept that this is really happening to me and that eventually I can overcome it. So.. hello to you all. x
