Welcome to the forum Angelique, what a horrendous story, I'm really glad that you have found us as this is a safe place. Take your time, read some of the articles / posts / threads. This will give you a good idea with what you're dealing with. Some very interesting suggestions to help, but the best is the support system here and that it is truly a safe place for members.
When you say they tried to do a c section on you, are you telling us that you were/are pregnant ?