Are you in crisis in their opinion or are you going through Dialectical Behavior Therapy? perhaps a question to the therapist would help. This is definitely immersion. I certainly hope this method works for you and you are able to appropriate and experience a breakthrough. I understand wanting to be average. However, what is average? Depends on the numbers. Compared to the greatest thinkers in the world I am below average by far. Just be you ,present and aware . As a wise man once said to me ,”eat the meat and leave the bones.“ Don’t try to get it all in those hours. Just find several ah hah moments. It will be interesting to see how you feel as this progresses. Keep in touch. Hope you make great steps toward wholeness and healing.