Hitting a lowest low

[EveHarrington]

I don’t think anyone was being condescending. You may be reading responses with ptsd colored glasses.

 

[willhealeventually]

I don’t think anyone was being condescending. You may be reading responses with ptsd colored glasses.

Yes thanks I’m sure that’s true.
If it feels too uncomfortable I’ll just leave the forum.

 

[Deanna]

I saw my therapist today and she taught me techniques to stay in the present. As we were going through the exercises, I realized how much I saw everything through the lens of flashbacks and never feeling safe anywhere. It was helpful.
She said I didn’t have to relieve my abuse to heal, which is a relief - because reliving it made me stop functioning. She made no med changes because she said meds aren’t going to help...

I can't say one way or another really but when my meds were increased it helped me immensely. It didn't change my over all personality at all... So I don't get why they can't be increased a small amount ( and I'm on quite a bit of medication)

 

[willhealeventually]

I can't say one way or another really but when my meds were increased it helped me immensely. It didn't change my over all personality at all... So I don't get why they can't be increased a small amount ( and I'm on quite a bit of medication)

I have been on most medications there are for depression and anxiety. I was misdiagnosed with depression before finally getting to the ptsd diagnosis. I even had 2 series of ECT treatments in the past, which caused some memory loss.
Medication is something everyone responds differently to. I have not been fortunate with feeling significant relief from meds at diff dosages. For the past 6-7 years I was quite the lab rat

 

[Deanna]

I have been on most medications there are for depression and anxiety. I was misdiagnosed with depression before finally getting to the ptsd diagnosis. I even had 2 series of ECT treatments in the past, which caused some memory loss.
Medication is something everyone responds differently to. I have not been fortunate with feeling significant relief from meds at diff dosages. For the past 6-7 years I was quite the lab rat

I'm pretty lucky in that respect. My medication works great. I was diagnosed 2 years ago after having PTSD for 50 yrs.

Sometimes I wish there was something else I could take but all the extra turns out too be is Excedrin. I have a bad neck too so, 2-for-1 for the gabapentin.

 

[EveHarrington]

Did you try meds outside of antidepressants?

 

[willhealeventually]

Did you try meds outside of antidepressants?

Yes have, including antipsychotics

 

[EveHarrington]

I’m sorry that meds haven't worked for you. I think this means you’ll have to work very hard at using coping skills. Are you able to make a schedule and stick to it? This has really helped me.

 

[Deanna]

I've had a pretty rigid life as well. There are rewards. You just have to believe in yourself. You're taking the new girlfriend too hard. Bulimia never makes you feel good so stop that for starters. The girlfriend thing will wear off and always hurts, but they have flaws like everyone else. Hopefully, she has a lot of money and buys your kids a lot of x, y, and z.

 

[willhealeventually]

I’m sorry that meds haven't worked for you. I think this means you’ll have to work very hard at using coping skills. Are you able to make a schedule and stick to it? This has really helped me.

I have a pretty rigid schedule being a teacher. The grounding techniques were very helpful for me to learn. Unfortunately I have been declining in functioning, such as concentrating, cooking, cleaning, self-care with the escalation of ptsd symptoms. I have been sleeping a lot and would sleep all the time if I could. It’s going to take me time to default to coping skills and first I need to come out of feeling crisis, which I have not done yet.

 

[Deanna]

I have a pretty rigid schedule being a teacher. The grounding techniques were very helpful for me to learn. Unfortunately I have been declining in functioning, such as concentrating, cooking, cleaning, self-care with the escalation of ptsd symptoms. I have been sleeping a lot and would sleep all the time if I could. It’s going to take me time to default to coping skills and first I need to come out of feeling crisis, which I have not done yet.

That's just what I said. Start with coming out of this crisis, with the bulimia first. You'll start feeling better and looking better -especially, since you have a rigid schedule and need to get yourself together. You're letting this new chick run your life right now and running you down into the ground. You'll find someone. There is someone for everyone.

 

[willhealeventually]

You're letting this new chick run your life right now and running you down into the ground. You'll find someone. There is someone for everyone.

That’s not it at all. I am gay and have no desire to get back with my husband. The problem is she was introduced to my son, who is treated for depression and is on/off suicidal. And, she is already telling his father how to parent my son whom she doesn’t have a clue about. I am in the middle of a divorce where I was the breadwinner and, after my ptsd took over, was no longer making 6 figures and stopped being useful to my ex. He was content with letting my die rather than work more to help out. I used to be bi but monogamous. Now I decided that after a few years of healing I will only be with women.
I am enraged that this complication of her during the divorce is going to potentially push my son over the edge as she asserts herself. Instead of trying to be a friend to my son, she is aiming to be a bulldozer wife to my ex like she thinks she knows something about anything.
My tween kid came home traumatized after meeting her. I had to put him together. On his birthday.
I am using my lawyer to draw some serious boundaries while battling my escalation of ptsd symptoms. Of course, the extra stress is not helping me.
I can’t just stop being bulimic, any more than I can stop feeling ptsd.