BPD How can you trust people? (BPD)

[HollowLavender]

I keep being burned by people who are supposedly my friends but they leave they all leave. What's the point in trusting people if they inevitably end up abandoned you? I have had so many friends try to help me they view me as something to be fixed like I'm damaged and then I try and I open up and they act so proud of the work they did because their such good people for taking in this wreak and making her something of value and the moment you show any sign of mental issues they throw you away because your not worth keeping. Why would I trust anyone? I don't get how people can honestly believe anyone can be trusted when that's the risk? It's a gamble and it never happens they all leave and I'm supposed to just ignore the past? I won't let others decide when I'm in pain. I cut because I control when I bleed I control when I am in pain I am not going to let other people decide when they throw me away anymore I won't be thrown away again.

 

[Rose White]

What does “showing mental issues” mean?

 

[HollowLavender]

What does “showing mental issues” mean?

When you have a backslide or your symptoms show. I've been disowned for slipping back into BPD thinking and my PTSD trauma responses or a bipolar manic or depressive episode.

 

[Rose White]

It’s hard to have BPD, PTSD, and Bipolar. It’s hard to manage those symptoms. Its hard to make friends. It’s also hard to be friends with someone who has those disorders. Relationships of all kinds are hard, especially for people who grew up being abused. I wish there was a magic spell to make people stay. It hurts so much when they leave. It’s so much work to stay with my self. It feels unfair.

 

[HollowLavender]

It’s hard to have BPD, PTSD, and Bipolar. It’s hard to manage those symptoms. Its hard to make friends. It’s also hard to be friends with someone who has those disorders. Relationships of all kinds are hard, especially for people who grew up being abused. I wish there was a magic spell to make people stay. It hurts so much when they leave. It’s so much work to stay with my self. It feels unfair.

I don't know if I can handle it anymore. It hurts so much it doesn't seem worth it anymore. I just want to find a place where it can just be me and a dog and f*ck friends people are to fickle to trust. I don't get how people do it.

 

[gorgonzola]

I don't get how people do it.

Nothing actually bad has ever happened to them so they never developed aversions nor any understanding of what the converse means.

 

[HollowLavender]

Nothing actually bad has ever happened to them so they never developed aversions nor any understanding of what the converse means.

I feel broken all the time. I feel alone and that makes me want friends then they leave and that hurts so much I stay alone and it repeats but now I've stopped trying to make friends because it's just to much of a risk I can't be fixed and I don't know what to do

 

[gorgonzola]

I ain't got much but I have ears. Well, eyeballs in this context.

 

[Sideways]

I just want to find a place where it can just be me and a dog and f*ck friends

I volunteered at a dog shelter. Because yep, people can suck.

Weirdly or not, I am currently now employed in the industry. When humans are letting you down in every possible way, you can trust dogs.

If dogs are where you feel safe right now in your life? That doesn’t mean quitting on life. Maybe it just means going in a different direction for now.

I started with dogs. Surrounded myself by them. I relearned how to build sustainable, meaningful, worthwhile relationships with humans by having a dog at the centre of those relationships.

Dogs are as critical to my functioning anymore. But I’ll always be grateful for the way they made humans accessible to me.

 

[HollowLavender]

Idk

I ain't got much but I have ears. Well, eyeballs in this context.

How to talk to anyone here really except for posting?

 

[HollowLavender]

I volunteered at a dog shelter. Because yep, people can suck.

Weirdly or not, I am currently now employed in the industry. When humans are letting you down in every possible way, you can trust dogs.

If dogs are where you feel safe right now in your life? That doesn’t mean quitting on life. Maybe it just means going in a different direction for now.

I started with dogs. Surrounded myself by them. I relearned how to build sustainable, meaningful, worthwhile relationships with humans by having a dog at the centre of those relationships.

Dogs are as critical to my functioning anymore. But I’ll always be grateful for the way they made humans accessible to me.

I can't have a dog because of where I live and I don't think a dog shelter would let me volunteer because my schedule is crazy

 

[gorgonzola]

How to talk to anyone here really except for posting?

Any in-person support groups in your area? Or any interest groups whose jib you like the cut of?