Poll How Has Your Belief In A Higher Power Changed After Your Trauma?

[jasonh9]

I don't know. I have heard just pray more way too much so i'm kinda jaded about it in a certian way. I believe there's a god but not sure how much god gets involved in things. Plenty of peopld shouldn't have to suffer like they do. I'm not saying i'm questioning god's will or whatever but i just don't understand i guess. Just have faith doesn't really work for me. I haven't really felt that yet. Maybe i will oneday but i haven't yet so i need more than faith to help me i think.

 

[chant2012]

My faith is around the same... I have questions, but my faith is still there.

 

[jocko]

I didn't have any before these last few years...It was the only thing that stopped me from killing myself. Started reading conspiracy theories which branched out into alot of consciousness/paradigm shift talk.. Alot of it seemed to echo what I think I understood better as a child then forgot. It made the situation initially worse and induced even more paranoia but that's what got me so desperate that I finally broke my seclusion and started looking for help.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am spiritual now and do not believe in any religion anymore. My faith has grown and I know that my higher power loves me no matter what. I do not believe he is cruel. People choose to be evil towards the innocent and I know bad things happen to good people. I do not believe my higher power can protect me from harm.

My faith has so helped me with my PTSD symptoms and I am learning and growing.

I got very burned and branded by a small cult like church. That is when my higher power revealed himself to me.

I have questions and I know that some of my choices are not healthy.

But as far as my healing and recovery go. I feel like I am soaring now instead of being in so much pain that I tried to kill myself.

Too many coincidences to deny that their is no higher power.

I do not preach my faith because it says in the bible that we have no need of anyone to teach us about God, that he will do all of the teaching himself through his holy spirit.

That is a pure faith and both of my granddaughters have this kind of faith. We do not go to any church and never will. They do not read anything about real faith. They just have it and the higher power answers their prayers. My daughter has this kind of faith too.

Sorry for rambling. But my faith has been matured through the fires of hell here on earth.

 

[Changing4Best]

I belong to a church so that I can be around other believers and enjoy their company. Sure, sometimes some of them hurt my feelings, but that has not stopped me from continuing to attend and socialize. I read my Bible every day, probably about 3 chapters. I know that my Higher Power is my teacher, no doubt there.

 

[Fadeaway]

It was refreshing for me to 'lose' my faith. It was holding me back and I was afraid. Now I don't worry about such things and live in the present rather than worrying about whether there is a heaven and/or hell.

Before, I was concerned that if my abuser asked his God for forgiveness then he would be in Heaven for all eternity. Along with any other repenters, but also with us innocent victims. The idea of being together forever absolutely horrified me. I was a believer, went to church of my own accord and even became a Sunday School teacher as a teenager. But with hindsight I think I was reaching out to find a meaning in my abused life.

Now I believe that when we die, that is it. I feel much more content with that option.

Additionally, I have read a lot of scientific work that dispel religions of all types as myths. I am a logical sort of person that likes to have proof in all aspects rather than simply needing to believe. I have a factual brain and atheism sits well with me.

If I didn't know better, I would say that I wrote this. This is 100% my experience. All of my abusers claim to love God with all their heart :cautious: and firmly believe they are going to heaven. Well, if that is the case, then heaven is my idea of hell. Beside, hell would be a vacation compared to what I have already been through.

I am happy for those who are able to find comfort in faith, but it is not for me. Especially when my abusers used bible verses to justify what they did to me.

 

[Changing4Best]

I have finally dealt with the fact that my abusers might be in Heaven. If they changed their ways and realized they were wrong later on, God does forgive. THe way I see it, Heaven is a big enough place that I won't have to be anywhere near them if I don't want to be! All I know is that I don't want to go to Hell, as the Bible says it is a place of much weeping and gnashing of teeth. That does not sound like much fun to me! On the other hand, Heaven is a place where there will be no tears, no pain and my beloved grandmother will be there too. I want to be with her! (And all my other loved ones that died). Also, most importantly, I want to be with GOD.

 

[Ti Vu]

I was raised in a Buddhist household. Became atheist by myself. And I was bent on that whole idea. After what happened, I found myself praying to God for help and strength, and to protect and pull everyone- women, children, men, through who have faced far too many lifetimes-worth of strife.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I don't have any respect for God.

 

[The Albatross]

Having no concept of "before" trauma, all I can say is that it changed in recovery in a positive way and yeah, I'm faith based now.