I Am Hurting And Scared So Badly Right Now I Can't Stand It.

[LittleBear]

No one will talk to me anymore not even my own family and people I thought we're my friends. I used to skydive, scuba dive, worked dangerous jobs, and faced many...many incredible challenges including sleeping in my car one semester in college because the town's economy crashed when a major employer's factory was destroyed. I have always been able to fight through any challenge and overcome my internal demons of anxiety and self-loathing. Now, I can't function. I don't even like my Dogs anymore and no one will talk to me. Previous passions have turned to dust and the things I loved and love are slipping away into a different universe.

No one will talk with me anymore and even my doctors sound bothered if I call.

Every day recently over the last six weeks has been a near or at a terror filled anxiety crises.

What is the matter with me!

LBear

 

[Zipperhead]

Depression is a common symptom of PTSD. Lose of interests, self doubt, issolation, all common.

As far as the people we thought we could trust, three things to think about.

1 we tend to push people away. Pat of self doubt and trust issues

2 People are afraid to try to help when they don't know what to do. They withdrawl hoping that we will "get over it and they can rejoin again someday.

3. Some people are afraid to face mental injury. It shows them we are not immune. What if we are next.

Doesn't help much, but it does show you are not alone.

 

[Tosh]

My interests have gone down the tube, my career, my relationships with my family and otherwise, everything! ....but there is hope. "This too shall pass." It's only feelings and emotions, and you will get through it.. It may take some work, but you can do it. Everyday is different for me, but sometimes I start to slip into a pit of dispair. Like I have just recently...and it really sucks. The only things I know to do are: Self care - even if I don't want to. Do things for you, that you would normally enjoy. (doesn't seem to help alot in my book, but it makes things a little more managable) Talk to your therapist, make extra appointments, and know that you are worth it. Talk to your doctor about your meds. See if something needs to be adjusted, or changed. Support groups, like alanon, or anything that relates to you. Sometimes it just helps to go and listen to other people talk. It kinda gets you outta your own head sometimes. Keep pushing through. I make a list of what I need to do, then I try to get done a couple things each day. It's hard, I know. This is what helps me, I don't know if it will help you. I'm not a professional and am struggling, just as you are. So if anything, just know that you are not alone.

 

[Meadowsweet]

(((littlebear)))

I dont have friends, or talk to family about problems. Sometimes, I hurt so much that they didn't help when I most needed it. But, there are too many worries in my world, so sometimes I say to myself "all there is to worry about right now, is me, and getting better" and when I can do that, life will improve, new friends will come along and I'll be more able to cope with that.

 

[simplekindofgirl]

(((Littlebear)))- I am in the same boat as you are. I used to be strong, I used to be tough, I used to be....

All of the posts above mine are true. I know this. You probably do too. It is a cycle that feeds on itself. But try, try to do something that is just for you, something you love or enjoy. Even something simple can help to break this cycle and least get you into a better place so that you can have some comfort.

 

[LittleBear]

Thanks everyone. Calmed down this morning. It seemed the meds started working. Visited with my GP and the therapist and felt pretty good all day. Now the anxiety is starting to creep back in. I'm going to take my Alpo before going to bed momentarily. Peace be with everyone.

LBear

 

[mamachick]

Glad you are feeling better. You are not alone