I hate my meds

[EveHarrington]

I hate my meds. Yes, I do.

They work in that my mood is more even, I’m able to tolerate triggers better, and my anxiety is mostly gone.

But it feels like I’ve lost 50% of “good” while only losing 10% of “bad”. Does this make sense? (Yeah, I know my perception is probably skewed, but losing good is a million times worse than losing bad is good.)

It’s like most of my fun/crazy/spontaneous side is just dead.....killed by the damn meds.

But I’m supposed to be happy because I no longer have suicidal crashes?

I think most of it is that I feel that my childlike state of innocence and fun is just gone. I miss my little one so bad. I just want her back. Where did she go?

I’m so upset I’m going to stop for now. I think I’m going to buy her something fun.

 

[Mee]

I empathise with the fun part gone, and more of that gone ( I think almost all of it). but I ascribe that to the trauma or the disorder in my situation. Not meds.

Is there a possibility of talking to the person who prescribed for you about making changes and seeing if different drugs suit you? I did try a drug initially that made me feel like a zombie. I quite liked that but the Dr felt feeling like a zombie was not progress. My current drugs don’t.

 

[blackemerald1]

Eve whilst on these meds have you been working on other ways to cope with anxiety etc so you can eventually lower the dose or have a break from them? Is this a possibility?