Psychcrime - psychiatrists, psychologists, professional rapists, perverts and pedophiles came up this morning over a call I received yesterday from my brother. It "seemed" harmless but unless you are familiar with our family dynamics you couldn't know all the subtle jabs involved. Shortly after the call I threw up and this morning I got sick again. Begging to question much like my mother, is my brother making me sick as well, literally??
My husband didn't understand and when I once again attempted to explain it he so much as accused me of trying to "make" him see things me way like some kind of dictator, then he said that flaming red flag word, I don't recall EVER hearing from him before...skeptical. I froze. ......I don't get it, before we met I was upfront about the PTSD issues and this morning I took it a step further. His wonderful way of seeing people's ability to change has never included this type of complex deceit and abandonment. He's never had his child (he doesn't have any)dangled in front of him and then snatched away with piles of your families slurs and rejection thrown your way. Passed from one perverted "student courselor to another for your own good' until finally breaking loose to get some kind of outside help.
He has no comprehension and now he is in a slightly put upon attitude about having to understand Trauma and the ins and outs of them manipulation of my family. Is he kidding me???? F*ck you!!! One of the worse and more vile acts of deceit, abuse, and mental torment is when your own family members are members of this profession and use it to manipulate not only their children, the family members, childhood friends, school officials, and counselors that get involved but that they believe it so much themselves after awhile.
I want to scream at my husband for daring to even question me about my side of the story, if he had had these doubts why not bring them up BEFORE now, BEFORE I moved in so many years ago, BEFORE we got married, is he f***ing kidding me????. I've never waivered in all these years. He has mentioned old sibling abuse from his sister, I've never witnessed it and yet I have no doubt it occurred and effected him severely. I'm NOT okay with this reaction from him. I have court files, stories I've relayed to him that can be backed up and his defense is "you act like I have to think like you" ???? I have no idea what he is talking about. I corrected him and said all I asked is that he believe me as I believe him.
I'm in a very shut down place. I called my tdoc. I feel quite a lone right now, not knowing who to talk to, this is extremely painful and I'm feeling lost. I hate not have a grip on reality and you can bet I in no way have any intentions of budging from my position.
Rrrr.
I'm taking space and one word will have me all over him like white on rice...stay away!!!
My husband didn't understand and when I once again attempted to explain it he so much as accused me of trying to "make" him see things me way like some kind of dictator, then he said that flaming red flag word, I don't recall EVER hearing from him before...skeptical. I froze. ......I don't get it, before we met I was upfront about the PTSD issues and this morning I took it a step further. His wonderful way of seeing people's ability to change has never included this type of complex deceit and abandonment. He's never had his child (he doesn't have any)dangled in front of him and then snatched away with piles of your families slurs and rejection thrown your way. Passed from one perverted "student courselor to another for your own good' until finally breaking loose to get some kind of outside help.
He has no comprehension and now he is in a slightly put upon attitude about having to understand Trauma and the ins and outs of them manipulation of my family. Is he kidding me???? F*ck you!!! One of the worse and more vile acts of deceit, abuse, and mental torment is when your own family members are members of this profession and use it to manipulate not only their children, the family members, childhood friends, school officials, and counselors that get involved but that they believe it so much themselves after awhile.
I want to scream at my husband for daring to even question me about my side of the story, if he had had these doubts why not bring them up BEFORE now, BEFORE I moved in so many years ago, BEFORE we got married, is he f***ing kidding me????. I've never waivered in all these years. He has mentioned old sibling abuse from his sister, I've never witnessed it and yet I have no doubt it occurred and effected him severely. I'm NOT okay with this reaction from him. I have court files, stories I've relayed to him that can be backed up and his defense is "you act like I have to think like you" ???? I have no idea what he is talking about. I corrected him and said all I asked is that he believe me as I believe him.
I'm in a very shut down place. I called my tdoc. I feel quite a lone right now, not knowing who to talk to, this is extremely painful and I'm feeling lost. I hate not have a grip on reality and you can bet I in no way have any intentions of budging from my position.
Rrrr.
I'm taking space and one word will have me all over him like white on rice...stay away!!!
