I am sorry... I want to assure you it was nothing to be ashamed of. I struggled a lot when I recovered a memory about being given red candies - I wanted them so badly... it made me feel responsible for the abuse that lasted for five years since then... I was three when it started.
However, later I remembered my brother was given candies as well, without anything happening to him... there were many people who gave us sweets or shiny coins to buy ice-cream... it was not about me accepting a gift. It was about somebody willingly choosing to hurt a child.
Children love candies and shiny coins. You were manipulated, you were innocent, you wanted to be loved - we all do... The person who hurt you was evil. He did it by choice... I honestly think he would have hurt you anyway - it wasn't about a seven years-old longing for silver coin nor about three years-old longing for candies - the shame does not belong with these little ones...
Hope it helps a bit... you are not alone and you are good :hug:
However, later I remembered my brother was given candies as well, without anything happening to him... there were many people who gave us sweets or shiny coins to buy ice-cream... it was not about me accepting a gift. It was about somebody willingly choosing to hurt a child.
Children love candies and shiny coins. You were manipulated, you were innocent, you wanted to be loved - we all do... The person who hurt you was evil. He did it by choice... I honestly think he would have hurt you anyway - it wasn't about a seven years-old longing for silver coin nor about three years-old longing for candies - the shame does not belong with these little ones...
Hope it helps a bit... you are not alone and you are good :hug: