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Today (Valentines day) is probably my biggest trigger date of the year.
Twenty One years ago I married the most amazing woman I had ever met, we have six children together.
We are now divorced and I have no idea where they are living, I have not seen my children now in nearly 3 years, that is the most hurtful part of all this.
The last 2 years on Valentines Day I have had a major meltdown and become extremely suicidal and depressed.
Today I woke up at 6 am and told myself that under no circumstances was I going to meltdown for a third year in a row and I haven't. I have kept myself occupied all day and been positive regarding my future. I have chosen to look forward for my future, if my children want toi contact me they can, they know how to, I am not going to lose any sleep over my past anymore. I have many skills and have a bright future ahead of me.
Twenty One years ago I married the most amazing woman I had ever met, we have six children together.
We are now divorced and I have no idea where they are living, I have not seen my children now in nearly 3 years, that is the most hurtful part of all this.
The last 2 years on Valentines Day I have had a major meltdown and become extremely suicidal and depressed.
Today I woke up at 6 am and told myself that under no circumstances was I going to meltdown for a third year in a row and I haven't. I have kept myself occupied all day and been positive regarding my future. I have chosen to look forward for my future, if my children want toi contact me they can, they know how to, I am not going to lose any sleep over my past anymore. I have many skills and have a bright future ahead of me.
