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lostforgottensoul
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I got into a meeting 5 mins early and it was just me and my sup and he asked how I was doing and so brought this up. Letting him know that seeing that I'm not doing well makes me hyper focus on it and then that frustrates me at myself and then my stats go downhill. I mentioned that my last sup told me to just let it happen. My current sup didn't get that, like at all. He took that as if I wouldn't be trying to improve and that's not the case. I was warned that this sup would be more military like. If I have advised my sup of my anxiety struggles, I always ask how my next sup will be for me and was warned that this sup is like being in the military. I'm like, "oh, great". It's not bad. Just means I can't be as honest with him.
Either way, saying to myself "just let it happen" when I feel my anxiety going up or when I feel like hyper focusing on how long I've been on the call. It's helping, like, a lot. So far anyway. Not sure how to figure out what that trigger is but maybe it's just constantly reminding myself of this. Super glad my last sup and I had a bit of a heart to heart about this and he gave me that "you know what you are doing and you know you can do this so just let it happen" phrase. I can still strive to improve in individual areas while still talking myself down, if that makes sense. I will always strive to improve but I just need to learn to not hyper focus on it.
This current sup said that "practice makes perfect" isn't true. It's "perfect practice makes perfect". Thanks but that doesn't help! Sigh!
Either way, saying to myself "just let it happen" when I feel my anxiety going up or when I feel like hyper focusing on how long I've been on the call. It's helping, like, a lot. So far anyway. Not sure how to figure out what that trigger is but maybe it's just constantly reminding myself of this. Super glad my last sup and I had a bit of a heart to heart about this and he gave me that "you know what you are doing and you know you can do this so just let it happen" phrase. I can still strive to improve in individual areas while still talking myself down, if that makes sense. I will always strive to improve but I just need to learn to not hyper focus on it.
This current sup said that "practice makes perfect" isn't true. It's "perfect practice makes perfect". Thanks but that doesn't help! Sigh!