I'm Feeling Better!

[falling_wave]

I just wanted to say this to someone other than myself. About a week and a half was one of my worst couple of days since the trauma. I felt I had nothing in me and nothing left. I was triggered really bad but I made it through and I went to therapy last week where I processed it. I found so many insights and even just seeing her strong support for me really helped. I left with some new ideas for calming down the storm inside me and some hope. I've been doing a little better each day and thinking about things she told me helps when I start having symptoms. Right now I feel calm and content. I haven't felt that way for so long. It's always been something I'm trying to hold in place but not today. I'm not sure what this means or how long it will last but for now I am enjoying it.

 

[J.L. Pitts]

I think that is so wonderful! I would call it a breakthrough!

 

[Recovery4Me]

@falling_wave Thanks for sharing with us your moment of peace! :tup: Many you have many, many more.

@J.L. Pitts Welcome to the forum! falling_wave offered a nice post to read, yes? Looking forward to seeing you around the board. :)

 

[Nam]

These little glimpses of the sky through the clouds is refreshing. Don't be alarmed if the clouds cover it all up again. Just know that as you heal the sky will clear more often and you will see the sun for longer periods.

 

[falling_wave]

Really appreciate all of your support and encouragement through this process. It really makes a difference.

 

[J.L. Pitts]

falling_wave you should be proud of yourself not only for the breakthrough but also for sharing that you had to go through a rough time to get there. I had to learn to appreciate my breakthroughs. At first I was like whew glad I made it through that but I had a wonderful therapist and she would always make me tell her all the positives that were now going to come through that breakthrough and to really own that I made that place where positive things could get through I did not haven ANY self esteem or self worth when we began treatment I will never forget the first question she asked me was "Tell me a little about yourself, well I started to recant the abuse and she quickly stopped me and said no that was what happened to you that is not who you are...changed my life forever with those words I never looked at myself the same way after that.

 

[falling_wave]

That's awesome! Sometimes it's as simple as having someone to reframe your thought patterns by shedding a little light on some aspect you didn't see before. That happens a lot for me in therapy especially after the rough times and when I'm that vulnerable from the stress sometimes it makes me want to cry with happiness that someone could help me feel past the barrier I put in place for myself and connect. Btw..still doing well. I had some anxiety today but dealt with it pretty well and I feel okay again. I love how we can help each other by things we learn through our struggles.

 

[SweetPeaandSunBird]

So glad you shared this. I have been so grey lately, but your post reminded me that just when I give up hope, the example of someone else can revive it.

 

[Tinyflame]

Hugs & support @SweetPeaandSunBird . :hug:

Yes, different info I think is critical, & I can't usually generate it myself.

And a vote of confidence is so helpful, especially at the worst times, self-rejection, post-triggered/ meltdown etc. ; things seem impossible.

Congratulations @falling_wave . :) :hug: