Imagery Friends And Places

[Lady of Longbourn]

Strange question. I've been doing this since I was like 14 years old. my first trauma was as a baby...so my T thinks I've had PTSD for a lot longer then 19.

I love listening to music, and sometimes, I fly away in the music. Imaging I'm the same person, but in a different place, different people. I'm usually stronger in the...whatever this is....I'm usually what I want to be...strong, PTSD doesn't affect me as much, or whatever. A lot like a child with imagery friends, though I know those people aren't real and I know where I really am.

I don't want to go into much detail, because I think this is embarrassing. Maybe it's a form of dislocation?

Can anyone relate?

 

[kers]

I sometimes fantasize about having a different life, about moving to a city far away and having the 'normal' life I've always sought. In these fantasies I have lots of friends, a family of my own, and no PTSD. In these imaginings it's me, but a better me, a happier me. I know it's counterproductive to think these things, but sometimes it's nice to dream of being different than what I am right now.