In A Dead Sleep; Tears Fell Like A Warm Tropical Rain.

[Linda Lee Bogard - King]

There is no explaining why these tears conquered my slumber with such distress and anger, which in itself - pissed me off. The entire morning I felt the triggers lining up - waiting for the call - ready to charge at the first insult that came my way.

It's 4:21 in the afternoon. Still obsessing over my disturbed wake-up call. Had a few blow-outs. Tried to sit still and finish writing a particular chapter but, my attention span is that of a gnat at the moment. My thoughts just seem to wander today. I feel sucked up in a vacuum - the lack of air is stagnant, suffocating the words I seek attempting to ask for help, but nooooo .... I remain silent and isolated in my distorted thinking.

 

[Reclusive]

I hope that you're feeling better, now, Linda and able to get some good rest. Sounds like you woke up ready for battle!

 

[Linda Lee Bogard - King]

Feeling much better, today, Reclusive. You were right, it was a battle that lasted through the weekend then I figured it out and got it out. Life is good and I'm feeling secure about my decision to give in and be loved, cared for emotionally. Despite the age difference between my live-in lover and myself, we are on the same page. My first relationship in 6 years... (It began last summer) ... Almost a year and I began having doubts ... because both husbands I married died within a year of marrying them ... distorted thinking ... I wanted to stop 'something' before it had a chance to begin.

 

[Reclusive]

I'm glad you've made it out the other side. Man, though, that's got to be rough. Just remember to cherish what you have now. You're gonna be okay.