My name is mike and i am iraq war vet. i suffer from ptsd, depression, and suicidal thoughts. I am married with a woman who has no regards for me. I also have a three year old son which i love very much. It is really hard to deal with many of the things i saw, and did in iraq. I am going through training at the ptsd clinic, and it is not working for me an i have no idea why. my wife says she supports my treatment, but at the same time she belittles me, and has called me a killer and psycho. I am so tired of being different from everyone and really want my life back, and i do not know how to get it back. I trully feel like the only thing that will fix my problem is death.
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Army_Brat_88
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Mike D -
You have no time for dying - you have a son to raise, and give away at his wedding. Don't rob him of that. He needs you in his life, you don't want him growing up without you. He needs you there to be his best friend, so you keep him in mind when you have negative thoughts. Your death will only cause your son tremendous grief, and it sounded like you really loved him too much to do that to him!
Perhaps you can do some sort of couples counseling, so that your wife can learn how to support you in a way that will work better for you?
Mike thank you for your service. I know you say you are having a hard time with what you did, but I believe that you have played a role in something that will change that country - and the world - for the better.
Have you signed up on the combat.ptsdforum.org site? You will get support from other veterans that might help you out because they will know what you've been/gone through.
Either way please keep writing. People here (or there) are great and you will get replies and support.
AB
You have no time for dying - you have a son to raise, and give away at his wedding. Don't rob him of that. He needs you in his life, you don't want him growing up without you. He needs you there to be his best friend, so you keep him in mind when you have negative thoughts. Your death will only cause your son tremendous grief, and it sounded like you really loved him too much to do that to him!
Perhaps you can do some sort of couples counseling, so that your wife can learn how to support you in a way that will work better for you?
Mike thank you for your service. I know you say you are having a hard time with what you did, but I believe that you have played a role in something that will change that country - and the world - for the better.
Have you signed up on the combat.ptsdforum.org site? You will get support from other veterans that might help you out because they will know what you've been/gone through.
Either way please keep writing. People here (or there) are great and you will get replies and support.
AB
Lady of Longbourn
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Welcome to the forum Mike :)
ClairBear226
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Hi Mike. You came to the right place. There are a lot of really good people here that understand exactly what you're dealing with. No one understands better than people that are walking a similar road.
Have you found the Combat PTSD forum? I have a friend that finds it really helpful to have the support of other soldiers. I'll see if I can find the link for you. Please hang in there. I know it really hurts right now, but you took a big step coming here, and it's definitely one in the right direction. ~Clair
FOUND IT! [DLMURL]http://combat.ptsdforum.org/[/DLMURL]
Please take a look, Mike. I think you might find it helpful.
Have you found the Combat PTSD forum? I have a friend that finds it really helpful to have the support of other soldiers. I'll see if I can find the link for you. Please hang in there. I know it really hurts right now, but you took a big step coming here, and it's definitely one in the right direction. ~Clair
FOUND IT! [DLMURL]http://combat.ptsdforum.org/[/DLMURL]
Please take a look, Mike. I think you might find it helpful.
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Anna
Welcome to the forum Mike. Your wife belittles you like that? What she says sounds terrible and will not help in anyway towards recovery. It sounds like maybe you should encourage her to maybe go together to therapy. She needs to learn how to support your properly and not make such disrespectful comments.
Navy Spouse
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Mike, I just wanted to say I agree with the above people. Your wife needs some help herself, I'm sorry you have to listen to that. You did what you were sent to do. My husband is just back from Afganistan. (2 months) He is also in counseling for PTSD. I can't imagine how much harder it must be for you to not have the support of your wife.
Every time you think of hurting yourself, think of your child. Loosing his dad is something that would stick with him the rest of his life. It deeply saddens me that all of you men and women cannot find peace once you return home.
This Thur. my husband is going to have a group session with others who have been through combat to share stories and feelings. This is the first time, but it sounds like a good thing. Maybe you could find out if thats available at the clinic you go to.
You survived war, don't let it take from you more than it already has. Hug your son closely. Take care
Every time you think of hurting yourself, think of your child. Loosing his dad is something that would stick with him the rest of his life. It deeply saddens me that all of you men and women cannot find peace once you return home.
This Thur. my husband is going to have a group session with others who have been through combat to share stories and feelings. This is the first time, but it sounds like a good thing. Maybe you could find out if thats available at the clinic you go to.
You survived war, don't let it take from you more than it already has. Hug your son closely. Take care
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