loui50
Gold Member
So I'm really struggling right now. I'm depressed and very anxious. I have a lot going on and just really need some support. I tried ECT treatment about a month ago and I only got through 9 of the 12 treatments. As the treatment went on I became more and more anxious about the treatment. It just was too much for me and i quit treatment. My therapist was not happy about my decision to quit and we had a really rough and kind of confrontational session. I struggled for a week thinking she was going to drop me. She assures me she would not do that and we have sort of reconnected i guess you could say. She and the ECT provider are both recommending a treatment called TMS. I dont know if it's for me, but I have a consultation on the 9th of April. The ECT treatment really helped with the depression and I was really happy, had energy, loved life for about 2 weeks. Then it all started crumbling again. I'm not sure what to make of it all. I am so tired. I hate getting up in the morning. I just want to stay in bed. Im angry all the time. I snap at my kids for just being kids. I am in constant need of reassurance from my husband and I think it is annoying him. Im not suicidal but I think about suicide a lot. I hope that makes sense. I dont really have a question, just looking for support I guess. I have a great family but they get tired of hearing about it. I have no in real life friends. I've isolated myself to the point they all gave up. Encouragement appreciated.
