I have been recently diagnosed with PTSD. I served 4 years in the Marine Corps and while in iraq the second time i witnessed a native iraqi lady and her 8 month old daughter being killed by the people in her village. they were stoned to death. i know it sounds totally barbaric and my question after it happened was "people still do that?". unfortunaly they do. my problem is of course seeing it happen. but my biggest and most horrible feeling is that i did nothing to stop these people from killing them. i couldnt, i was told that it wasnt my place to do so since they were not harming me or any other of my brothers and sisters in arms. i dream about what happened and i hear the lady asking for help in my everyday daily activities. these activities have since stopped since i dont go outside to much because of all the voices, and a simple baby crying will send me into anxiety attacks. well anyway that is my story. i have recently started being able to talk about what happened but not to people close to me i feel that when they hear it they may not want to be apart of my life. i guess i am just looking for answers. i havent been able to find anything anywhere else so im hoping this will be a good place to try. i am currently a bit discouraged. it seems this site is very well laid out. and i do appreiciate the rules very much but i dont know anywhere where it is proper grammar to capilalize the first letter of every word. anyway that is not why i am here and with this PTSD little tiny things drive me crazy.
Thank You all for reading i cant stand it when people are so high stung but i seem to be all the time ha go figure. well anything at this point will hlp thank you all for taking time out of your day to read my post.
Thank You all for reading i cant stand it when people are so high stung but i seem to be all the time ha go figure. well anything at this point will hlp thank you all for taking time out of your day to read my post.
