I don't know if I'm doing this right. I'm trying to find resources and support. Complex trauma has vastly affected my life and now my husband has asked for a separation. My need for control, my triggers, my inability to let things go or not need to resolve them, my tendency to go for the jugular when I feel unsafe, my codependency... It's all an issue. I recently told me psychiatrist that it feels STUCK inside me. Like this is something I'll never be free of. I'm kind of in crisis in that regard. I feel like this isn't fixable and they broke me permanently.
My name is Britney. I'm a 37-year old female with autism, ADHD, and generalized anxiety disorder. My dad as an alcoholic drug addict and highly abusive. My mom likely has borderline, but she's undiagnosed. I've very recently decided to go no contact with her and she doesn't even know yet. I wanted to write a letter, but the CPTSD Foundation said it's a bad idea.
I don't know where to start, but I'm a mess and I don't know how to learn new skills or get better.
The trauma has destroyed my life. I'm going back to therapy to help process the recent feelings of abandonment.
Is there hope? How do you heal?
My name is Britney. I'm a 37-year old female with autism, ADHD, and generalized anxiety disorder. My dad as an alcoholic drug addict and highly abusive. My mom likely has borderline, but she's undiagnosed. I've very recently decided to go no contact with her and she doesn't even know yet. I wanted to write a letter, but the CPTSD Foundation said it's a bad idea.
I don't know where to start, but I'm a mess and I don't know how to learn new skills or get better.
The trauma has destroyed my life. I'm going back to therapy to help process the recent feelings of abandonment.
Is there hope? How do you heal?