Long dissociation

[InTrouble]

No one will believe me when I write this. Even my doctors can't believe I managed to come out of it. I was dissociated for 4.5 years. I need help reorienting and I need support. I have a therapist. But it isn't enough. I have CPTSD from massive trauma.

 

[gorgonzola]

Totally believe you. Brains are capable of some really wild stuff.

Any chance you can see your therapist more often?

 

[Skybonded]

I believe you. Dissociation is a very powerful mechanism of the brain, and I understand how disorienting it can be to "come back" to feeling grounded or present.

Seconding what gorgonzola said, is it possible that you can see your therapist more often? Are there any CPTSD support groups in your region?

 

[Friday]

What kind of disassociation? Dissociative amnesia, fugue state, DPDR, catatonia, etc.? Disassociation is a ginormous umbrella that also includes daydreaming, professional distance, & ‘driving on autopilot’.

 

[pamcoco]

I get it. I lost about the same amount of time after several unrelated assaults in 2009. I was horrified when I realized what was going on when I went to an appointment and couldn't answer the basic questions like the date, my age....
I still have bouts of fugue and overall have a very poor sense of time.