Sufferer Long Term Child Abuse Survivor

[PattyOnEdge]

Hi, My name is Patty. I am a 28 year old married mother of two. I recently had a complete breakdown leading to my diagnosis. I am attending therapy now. I was physically and emotionally abused by my father. My mother continues to emotionally abuse me. As a child I had a few older men sexually, and emotionally abuse me. I have recently had 2 miscarriages. Right now I get flash backs and trying hard to remember. Often I say and do things I won't remember and are out of character. I feel so lost. I am just beginning to understand why I feel the way I feel. My husband has made it clear he will no longer watch me live in my misery. I look forward to healing and feeling better. I just hope its possible.

 

[BigBear]

My husband has made it clear he will no longer watch me live in my misery.

I hope that means that he is going to support what ever it takes for you to get better.

What ever, we are here to support you!

Bear

 

[Lucycat]

Hi Patty,

Welcome to the forum!

I think I can understand you. I had a meltdown 3 years ago this month, that led to my diagnosis. I too had suffered at the hands of my father many years ago and really had no comprehension of the effect that had on me - until I went into meltdown!

So, I think you are in a bad place just now. It is all new and raw. I hope you believe that it can and does get better. You are just starting your road to recovery, but it is a worthwhile journey.

I am still seeing my therapist now, 3 years later. But not so often now. I am in a good place, and look forward to you joining me there!!

 

[PattyOnEdge]

Thank you guys. Yes my husband is helping me. I have started a journal to help me make sense of my past as the flashbacks come. Its good to here this road will lead to brighter days. :-)

 

[PattyOnEdge]

My husband is just standing his ground that I need help and my depression is effecting the whole family.

 

[Hatchetface]

Welcome! :)

 

[blue-Ocean]

Welcome to this site. I too was abused by my father who even put me in hospital on one occasion.

It is a struggle to come to terms with it but I found this site days ago and already feel a part of it.

Everyone here treats all like family which is nice, it helps to have support.

 

[KP the nut]

Hi and welcome to the forum