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Danica101
Hey there, I think I'm looking for a sounding board, some encouragement and "how to". I'm a 40y/o woman, I have cystic fibrosis and lost my mother 2 years ago. On and off since then, I have been having increased anxiety over loosing my mother to MS and my health. On top of that I have been recalling an instance from when I was around about gr 5, where a neighboring friend a little older than me pressured me into touching one another. I'm having a hard time fully remembering what happened, but other parts I can recall so vividly as though it were yesterday, and it's making my stomach churn. I do have some up coming therapy type sessions with my social worker in a couple weeks, to help cope with anxiety as I know in the past anxiety has compounded my health problems and landed me in hospital, I don't want to go that route obvi, if I can help it. After my conversation with her today, I got home and tonight, I think it has clicked that this may be a part of my issues these last couple years (I've had a number of hospital stays). I've never talked to anyone about this, and I've realized it keeps plaguing my thoughts. How do you open up and tell someone something you logically know wasn't your fault but it's been pushed down for 30 years and feels like your dirty little secret? My social worker is truly amazing, I've known her for 20 years, she knows all my little secrets.... that was until I came to this realization, and it still feels gut wrenching. How do you start the conversation?
