EarthKnight
New Here
Hi all,
Writing my own intro before reading (most) others, to keep it original.
Disclaimer: My brain wanders and cuts-out, so this may be disjointed. I hope itās lucid, regardless.
Diagnoses with (C)PTSD due to childhood trauma, severe medical (pain) disability (CRPS, a New Four-Letter Word from Hell - RSDSA) and some other things.
Canāt work 95% of the time; canāt drive, sit, bend, lift, twist, or so anything that uses or even flexes the ground, abdominal, or stomach muscles without quickly & dramatically increasing the pain.
Note: I try not to say, āmy painā - because this is something happening TO me - itās not part OF me.
It all really kicked off after a vasectomy reversal went wrong - so, um, thatās where the pain lives.
Iām the Papa (step) of a lovely young lady who is 17.5, and been with her amazing mom for almost 15 years.
Originally I never wanted kidsā¦but after a year or so of being a dad I asked my wife if we should try for another - because parenting is the most amazing (& challenging) experience. Sheād been ruing the same thing!
That is how I ended up on the table back on 9 Jan 13; almost 12 years ago.
What was supposed to be a āliving, letās have a baby togetherā experience slowly turned into a life-altering shit show. Canāt work; medical debt despite insurance, etc., blah.
Since then: 26 surgeries, third medical device installed, etc, blah. This after about 18-months of naturopathy, acupuncture, chiropractic, etc., seeking to avoid surgical knives & pain drugs.
Have now been to Stanford, Cedars Sinai, Johnās-Hopkins, Cleveland Clinic, & other places, including several specialty clinics. All this did is slowly increase the pain.
Now Iām dealing with fairly severe PTSD, disabling (um, groin) pain, IBS, depression & anxiety, and other issues.
Never shall I quit!
I accept my circumstances on a day-by-day basis, but will never accept this as my forever life.
Medical and technological advances, therapy options, our understanding of alternative medicine modalities, and other things keep me looking forward.
Although I have my down times (perhaps more than I admit to myself): I have a variety of things I do to distract myself (much silliness!), and an amazing, supportive, mostly-patient wife who works, cooks, drives, and does too much for me in general.
More for her than for me: I keep going, fighting, & surviving.
Thatās the condensed version.
I look forward to sharing with & learning from everyone.
Writing my own intro before reading (most) others, to keep it original.
Disclaimer: My brain wanders and cuts-out, so this may be disjointed. I hope itās lucid, regardless.
Diagnoses with (C)PTSD due to childhood trauma, severe medical (pain) disability (CRPS, a New Four-Letter Word from Hell - RSDSA) and some other things.
Canāt work 95% of the time; canāt drive, sit, bend, lift, twist, or so anything that uses or even flexes the ground, abdominal, or stomach muscles without quickly & dramatically increasing the pain.
Note: I try not to say, āmy painā - because this is something happening TO me - itās not part OF me.
It all really kicked off after a vasectomy reversal went wrong - so, um, thatās where the pain lives.
Iām the Papa (step) of a lovely young lady who is 17.5, and been with her amazing mom for almost 15 years.
Originally I never wanted kidsā¦but after a year or so of being a dad I asked my wife if we should try for another - because parenting is the most amazing (& challenging) experience. Sheād been ruing the same thing!
That is how I ended up on the table back on 9 Jan 13; almost 12 years ago.
What was supposed to be a āliving, letās have a baby togetherā experience slowly turned into a life-altering shit show. Canāt work; medical debt despite insurance, etc., blah.
Since then: 26 surgeries, third medical device installed, etc, blah. This after about 18-months of naturopathy, acupuncture, chiropractic, etc., seeking to avoid surgical knives & pain drugs.
Have now been to Stanford, Cedars Sinai, Johnās-Hopkins, Cleveland Clinic, & other places, including several specialty clinics. All this did is slowly increase the pain.
Now Iām dealing with fairly severe PTSD, disabling (um, groin) pain, IBS, depression & anxiety, and other issues.
Never shall I quit!
I accept my circumstances on a day-by-day basis, but will never accept this as my forever life.
Medical and technological advances, therapy options, our understanding of alternative medicine modalities, and other things keep me looking forward.
Although I have my down times (perhaps more than I admit to myself): I have a variety of things I do to distract myself (much silliness!), and an amazing, supportive, mostly-patient wife who works, cooks, drives, and does too much for me in general.
More for her than for me: I keep going, fighting, & surviving.
Thatās the condensed version.
I look forward to sharing with & learning from everyone.
