Sufferer CSA Survivor looking for community and understanding

[decidui]

hey there. wanted to rip the bandaid off about where my C-PTSD largely stems from since I've had so much shamed surrounded by it in the past. i've only been diagnosed with C-PTSD this past year even though some of my trauma has been known about since I was 6. i also dealt with being around substance abuse as a child, death of a father due to that substance abuse, and emotional neglect from family. also plenty of child on child sexual abuse as well unfortunately. i'm sick of having to keep all these aspects of my childhood a secret anymore or feeling guilty when I do talk about them. i want community and friends where i can be honest and authentic about my past and how it continues to affect me today. aside from that I'm currently 25 years old with a bachelor's degree that I'm proud of, I love to read, and work at an organization that helps those with developmental disabilities. :)

 

[Sideways]

Welcome to the forum. Sorry you have reason to be here, but glad you found us:)

 

[Dark.Green.Feathers]

fellow COCSA trauma haver here, welcome to the forum ^^
shame is a really tough one, we’re all familiar with that here in one way or another, i hope you find what you’re looking for

 

[arfie]

hello decidul. welcome to the forum. good for you on ripping that proverbial bandage off. a cliche i've picked up over the course of my own recovery is, "you are only as sick as your secrets." breaking the secrecy code i was conditioned by in childhood has opened the door to healing. community in which i can bring those secrets out into open air has helped at least as much.

hope it helps you, too. welcome aboard

 

[Susan Jane]

hey there. wanted to rip the bandaid off about where my C-PTSD largely stems from since I've had so much shamed surrounded by it in the past. i've only been diagnosed with C-PTSD this past year even though some of my trauma has been known about since I was 6. i also dealt with being around substance abuse as a child, death of a father due to that substance abuse, and emotional neglect from family. also plenty of child on child sexual abuse as well unfortunately. i'm sick of having to keep all these aspects of my childhood a secret anymore or feeling guilty when I do talk about them. i want community and friends where i can be honest and authentic about my past and how it continues to affect me today. aside from that I'm currently 25 years old with a bachelor's degree that I'm proud of, I love to read, and work at an organization that helps those with developmental disabilities. :)

Welcome to the forum. Talking about it all is a big step. I am fairly new here, but it a place of great support for me. I think you are very brave to open up. Things that happened to us a children was out of our control…I am learning that myself. That fact is still hard for me, as shame is powerful

 

[DSkyler]

Keep on keeping on. To be proud of your achievements and rewarding job is amazing considering what you’ve been through. May your healthy parts continue to flourish and assist those parts of you in need. Lots of resources and connections on here and people who will understand and know where you are coming from