Losing Direction

[fdm513]

Hello.
I'm a new member. I just stumbled on this site tonight. I am home alone and had a few to drink. I couldn't get Iraq out of my mind and wanted to just find someone who may be thinking like me tonight. A little about me...I'm 27. I've done 3 tours to Iraq. I am not diagnosed with PTSD although I think it has mroe to do with me now ever going to see a doctor.
The past few months has been miserable. I have heard fire fights in town, and called people to see if they were ok while they were happening, but they never happened. It was so real in my mind. I was literally ready to go rushing in to help. I have seen images in my home of people and thing that aren't here. I don't know what is going on with me.
I don't really know why I am here. I can't go to a doc. I'd rather just vent for a couple minutes in a way that nobody can know who I am.

 

[a3a2]

Welcome to the forum, fdm513. I think you are going to find a lot of people here who understand your struggle.

 

[MurphyJB]

welcome.
My fiance is an vet as well.
I know you don't want to, but you should REALLY consider seeking treatment.
You are lucky in that you will receive free treatment through the military...
If you're worried about your commanding officers finding out, you could go to a doctor off post that isn't affiliated with the military.

Best of luck to you.