Lurker With Intent

[Chin Strapped]

IJust a line to say I'm lurking and may comment. Just wanted to tip my hat.

Think I originally joined the site 2012, heavy user turned Lurker and occasional comment maker. I disapeer allot. Really I could do a reintroduction every 6 months the amount I lurk/go awol.

Afghan 2009-2010 British Army combat medic. Diagnosed with ptsd in 2010 and 2012. Now Life is about as good as it can be. Anxiety, paranoia and low mood continue.

That's all. Just so you know I'm not a nobody. I'm somebody like the rest of you, a veteran with significant mental health issues: screw the outside world.

Peace out,

Dan

 

[Deleted member 43454]

Just as long as you aren't "Lurking with Hostile Intent." :D
Welcome again, Dan.

 

[Sleeping Dragon]

Things will continue to change for you Dan. You'll learn to recognize more triggers, and find ways to cope. Each step you take will open more doors to the things that make life worth while.

I've been dealing with this shit since 1967, and still learn more and more about how I became the stone cold killer who must find my way in a world where I will never truly fit. But, there are still places where I can find beauty and happiness. I have to search for them each and every day.

Keep looking my Brother.

SD

 

[Deleted member 33437]

Army medic here too, afghan 06 and again in 09. Relatively new on here and I tell ya, I'm lurking with intent too... intent to get myself better, I'm discovering an incredible amount of information. Sometime lurking can pay off.
Welcome again brother.

 

[dutchiedelta]

WB CS :)

 

[Chin Strapped]

Things will continue to change for you Dan. You'll learn to recognize more triggers, and find ways to cope. Each step you take will open more doors to the things that make life worth while.

I've been dealing with this shit since 1967, and still learn more and more about how I became the stone cold killer who must find my way in a world where I will never truly fit. But, there are still places where I can find beauty and happiness. I have to search for them each and every day.

Keep looking my Brother.

SD

Thanks all and for the wisdom SD. I'm getting there. Recently moved out of town, taken me about 3 months to adapt and I keep myself to myself and enjoy my own time to reflect and stay the hell away from people. All i need is my family and country life, amazing to be out the city and in an easy job.

Army medic here too, afghan 06 and again in 09. Relatively new on here and I tell ya, I'm lurking with intent too... intent to get myself better, I'm discovering an incredible amount of information. Sometime lurking can pay off.
Welcome again brother.

Miss being a medic. If it wasnt for anxiety and panic I'd go for paramedic! Not really much use at the moment! Chilling instead

 

[Deleted member 33437]

Miss being a medic. If it wasnt for anxiety and panic I'd go for paramedic! Not really much use at the moment! Chilling instead

Miss it too, I was a trained paramedic before becoming a medic. I miss being needed, miss having a purpose and having people depending on me. Miss being treated intelligently and respectfully. I miss what I did oversea but I don't miss what I saw unfortunately.

 

[Chin Strapped]

Miss it too, I was a trained paramedic before becoming a medic. I miss being needed, miss having a purpose and having people depending on me. Miss being treated intelligently and respectfully. I miss what I did oversea but I don't miss what I saw unfortunately.

I don't like what I saw and the people we lost, but I can deal with it and think about them often awake and in my dreams. I spent 3 years in therapy and getting to know what life now means. I just can't get rid of hypervigilance, paranoia and the stress it creates. I'm glad the feelings of attack and explosions are now fading, although I'm a pro at masking these during conversation. Just occasionally stare through people lol.

My advice is seek professional help and equip yourself with a way of thinking about yourself and some tools to coping. Long process mate. Just look at the Vietnam vets on here. Pro's at being mental!

 

[Deleted member 43454]

Eh, people don't have shit important to say half the time anyway.
Staring through them I can read their intent.

What I wonder is... if there really was any sort of definitive way to "fix" this pesky stress issue,
why isn't it being spread like wild fire all over and accounts of those who've overcome.
All I see and hear is.. eh doesn't go away, still dealing with it, it's the nature of the beast I suppose.

A man alone can not defeat the Beast... the beast symbolizes the devil. And that shitbird rules via temptation.
Only one I know who can defeat the Beast is the Lord. And I've been led astray by following the likes of men of this world who aren't
willing to put aside their ego. Not even a man with a group of other men can defeat the beast. Only the Lord.

You're gunna be viewed as crazy regardless... might as well be on the good side, instead of rollin' with the bad. Also, once you even mention the words PTSD you are treated as mental even if you're just chillen. So f*ck em' none of their business.

 

[nomedic1]

Glad you here, nice to have more on the team