Madness, Insanity & The World Wide Web

[anthony]

A day of fault finding issues... from 6am and its now 9:30pm. My eyes want to just strangle technology.

 

[anthony]

Hmmm... this isn't something I often get to do -- sit in bed, read the forum, and do some writing and responding.

I like it.

 

[Tanishq]

Sounds you have found your focus zone. Cheers Anthony. :tup:

 

[anthony]

I've just had enough for the day, to be honest Tan. By the time I finished exercise, tidying up, walking the dog, it was lunchtime. Then I've been learning a new content management system at present, along with other stuff online... and by 7pm I was just over it all and decided to hell with everyone else -- me time.

 

[Flossy]

Same shit... different day. Slowly I am inching closer to closing this place down, wiping my hands with it a...

I know my opinion on this would be met with horror by other forum members, but I'm going to say it regardless. I think there comes a time in all entrepeneurs lives where they 'should' let go and sell up and move away from their creation.

Don't get me wrong, I don't think you are doing anything wrong. The opposite. I think once you have reached a level of growth and change that means you no longer want to read posts (I rarely want to read them now) and then you begin to be held accountable or get attacked by the dickheads, it's time to take some rewards and leave the nuts and bolts of helping others to someone else.

You created this. You deserve to get some reward for this. I would encourage you to take any fkg great huge lumps of dollars that you are offered and make sure they pay for the huge database of information, as well as the support.

I do think however, that if you ever decide to do this and sell up, there is a huge need in the world for a book on PTSD based on the information you have gathered here

There may be a way you could get a lump payout for selling up but also keep the intellectual property rights to turn that into a book. In your position, I would not want to write the book, but I would want control. I would hire an editor to put together everything you have already written.

Of course, you would be bombarded by people telling you how you "are MY PTSD" but that is unfair on you. You deserve, like every other human in the world, to move on when something no longer meets your needs or becomes a drain or a dread. Or you simply want to create another project for your life in your life.

Not sure I have made a lot of sense here, but I think the gist is there. I just wanted you to know that some of us can see how continuing forever, owning My PTSD would be not good for you, unfair and frustrating. Don't do it to yourself. Take the reward, as much as you can get, you fkg deserve it and know that you have already done a great service to all PTSD sufferers in the world.

It boils down to one thing a lot of PTSD suffererers have trouble doing....look after your Self.

 

[Flossy]

By the way, I gave the last word Self a capital letter because what I mean by it is not the same meaning as the phrase,
"look after yourself". I mean look after your Self as in the whole range of areas of needs that a man has. Or an adult has.
Like in Maslow's Heirarchy of Needs.

In any man's life, there comes a time when he needs to change direction or focus because some of his needs are not being met or he has grown and needs to head in a different direction.

Not many men do the same job or stay in the exact same industry for even five years any more. You created something that did not exist before. You acted in an entrepeneurial way. This does not meant you need to stay tied to the institution you created.

Many people in the world who are considered extremely successful have built something that became of great value and then sold it. I don't think anyone has the right to an opinion on how much they are needed when they decide they are ready to do so. So, this same respect to you as a man needs to be given in this situation. Should you ever decide that is what you really wish you could do.

Another tiny thought of mine, is that you could become a paid speaker on the subject, but only you know if that is something you would enjoy or not. It is also something you would need an agent for to keep the organising BS being done by someone for you.

I'll shut up now. I can't work, so have no basis to tell you what you can do. My intent is not to do that. But to share options.
If your ideal option is to move away from PTSD altogether eventually, that is noble as well and an occupation to fill your days with satisfaction, would show itself.

 

[MaybeOneDay]

I am glad you wrote this post. I have been thinking the same way but could of never stated it so eloquently.

Anthony there will always be people who speak persuasively enough that will get you to question whether you are doing the "right thing" even after you had finally decided how YOU felt.

 

[anthony]

I really don't like dental surgery. Had to get a tooth removed yesterday due to an infection growing in my gum above it. The dental surgeon pulled a cyst the size of a 5c piece, round, above my tooth. About 1cm in size, round. Huge! It wasn't causing pain, but it was consistently leaking puss and rubbish, thus it would eventually likely do me a lot of harm from a bacterial view.

Now I have to endure a very long process -- get gum grafted in a few months -- return months after again for the screw to be planted into my gum -- return months later again for the tooth to be attached. All in the while I have a fake tooth insert for use. Yeh! Pain in the arse... but I guess it will be easy to brush it. :D:cautious: Pull out, brush, put away until needed. :laugh:

This part is the annoying part. There are several stitches in my mouth right now, and swollen to boot... so a liquid diet.

One thing I've always despised, is anything in my mouth hurting. I can take broken bones and injuries, no worries... but I hate my mouth hurting me. Even a filling, where there is pain for a few hours afterwards -- that annoys the hell out of me.

Argh! I feel like I've gone a few rounds with someone right now -- that feeling you have after taking some good face punches, the swollen, annoying feeling. Anyone who has fought regularly would know the feeling. Annoying... except with the added benefit of stitches and I can't chew nothing at the moment.

Argh... dentists -- I thought they were bad. Ha -- dental surgeons -- worse. Go in -- come out way worse.

Ok -- whinge and whine over now. :coffee:

 

[Flossy]

I really don't like dental surgery. Had to get a tooth removed yesterday due to an infection growing in my g...

@anthony

Please forgive me for playing Mother/Nursey.

Did the dentist give you a script for Bactrim? He should have.

If not, I encourage you strongly to ring him tomorrow and get a script.

The reason is that the bacteria that is involved in gum infections and abscesses can travel through the bloodstream when the tooth is removed and lodge in the valve of the heart.

This causes Cardiomyopathy. I know this because it killed my Grandma (on the toilet). I also know this because the bacteria does the same thing to breast implants. Lodges in them and causes them to contract. I know this cos I have breast implants and have to take 4 Bactrim tablets an hour before any dental work including cleaning.

I share with you, so you might take me seriously and go get the noice Bactrim.

You don't want to cark it on the dunny. Trust me. We would all laugh out guts out at the mental picture and be horrified at the same time.

PS If you've got your migraine med ( I forgot the name now, but best pain med there is and hard to get).....you deserve to take one. Jawbone pain is the worst. If you don't have any try two panadol and two nurofen as the nurofen will reduce the swelling a bit.

Bone pain gives anyone a free ticket to whinge and moan and dribble out of the side of their mouth at the same time with a hounddog expression in your eyes.

Get the drugs. mmmm'k?

 

[anthony]

LOL @Flossy... I have two antibiotics and pain killers, yes. Yep, I got two more packets of Di-Gesic. Which are difficult to get from doctors because they're opioid based (dextropropoxyphene). But they're people just like me, where others such as Forte do not work at all. I can take the whole box of those and it does not one single thing for pain.

The doctor has to be seriously good with prescribing these... very hard to get... but because I have a stable history of using them and fit the profile, they're listed against my name in the prescription database doctors access.

 

[Flossy]

@anthony

Excellent! Glad to hear you have a mutually respectful doc and you're on the database, in case he carks it.

Apparently, Digesic was actually unavailable for a while in Australia because there was none of the base ingredient available to be imported. (something like that...the details fell out of my brain)

Also, glad to hear you won't be "Doing An Elvis" any time in the near future.

Good luck getting that T-bone steak into the blender.

 

[anthony]

Good luck getting that T-bone steak into the blender.

It's a bit like that right now. My diet for the last 36 hours has consisted of chocolate milk. That's it. My mouth is still swollen enough that to put pressure on anything still hurts that I'm not game enough for food just yet. I hope to digest my first solid (mushy) food tomorrow.