I didn't mean it confrontationally, sorry if it came across that way. In my ignorance, I still haven't read the NICE guidelines despite you providing them for me because jargon stresses me out, what I was saying was what I have overheard or come to understand along the way. I only wanted to say that whatever the guidelines do say, that doctors/psychiatrists in my experience will bend the rules a little if they need to - one crisis team guy said if I explained the benefits of newer american meds to a psychiatrist they may prescribe it off label for me, I didn't chase it up but nonetheless the whole system (to me at least) seems fairly flexible. But I definitely didn't mean to make it sound easy or to set her up for disappointment, because I went through a lot with the NHS first and I would rather not have had all that than had the meds, which quite frankly are too little too late.