I am tired of being grouchy to my family. They don't deserve it. At. All. My 10-year-old son keeps coming up to me and saying "Daddy. Happy. Smile. Cheese" several times a day and it breaks my heart. He does it in a totally goofy voice, but it masks his desire for his dad to not be grouchy all the time, especially on weekends.
Long story as short as I can make it. Bullied as a kid. I have a fear of people I don't know and cannot tolerate things that are in my space. The worst are the two ladies next door. I had an argument with them 3 years ago and it turned into a yelling match. Ever since then, I am afraid to be at home when they are home. I have been in therapy, I work on my breathing. I know what is going on, and that PTSD is making life hard for me.
Unexpected noises cause me to startle. People standing behind me cause fear. Even things like taking my kids yesterday to get their Halloween pumpkins was stressful. My son said we could go up the street and get them as they were BOGO. A great idea, but it scared me because the pumpkins were at a house up the street. Maybe someone will come out of their house and attack me, just like the ladies next door. Of course, nothing happened. Like always. But the fear was there.
I have thought in the back of my head for a long time about going on meds, but only a very very low dose and only using them at the worst times (weekends). I'm usually good during the weekdays as I feel safe, but at home I have a hard time unless the neighbors aren't home.
Is there a med for occasional use? Do you have any experience with it? Side effects? Addictive?
Thank you.
Long story as short as I can make it. Bullied as a kid. I have a fear of people I don't know and cannot tolerate things that are in my space. The worst are the two ladies next door. I had an argument with them 3 years ago and it turned into a yelling match. Ever since then, I am afraid to be at home when they are home. I have been in therapy, I work on my breathing. I know what is going on, and that PTSD is making life hard for me.
Unexpected noises cause me to startle. People standing behind me cause fear. Even things like taking my kids yesterday to get their Halloween pumpkins was stressful. My son said we could go up the street and get them as they were BOGO. A great idea, but it scared me because the pumpkins were at a house up the street. Maybe someone will come out of their house and attack me, just like the ladies next door. Of course, nothing happened. Like always. But the fear was there.
I have thought in the back of my head for a long time about going on meds, but only a very very low dose and only using them at the worst times (weekends). I'm usually good during the weekdays as I feel safe, but at home I have a hard time unless the neighbors aren't home.
Is there a med for occasional use? Do you have any experience with it? Side effects? Addictive?
Thank you.