Microdosing Psilocybin

[Hope2]

I’ve microdosed for about 5 weeks now. I’m back to dosing every third day. Overall it’s been a game changer for me.

Of course life is there with its normal struggle and my burnout doesn’t just disappear. But overall I’m more open, happy, generous, easier to ground myself and more in contact with others and nature. I’m more creative and more emotional. I’ve better resilience to stress and more endurance at work or in busy environments. My headache has been less frequent. I feel more hope about the future. The only downside is some nausea and stomach discomfort.

I’m planning to take a break for a week and see how it works. It feels as microdosing has helped me in the way SSRI should’ve worked. I know it’s all individual but for me no psych medication really has worked out good, often with a lot of side effects. I told my psychiatrist in my last appointment and he was happy for my improvements, felt good to share it. I’m still playing in the choir, and it’s little less scary now.

During this summer I didn’t know what to do anymore and all suicidal thoughts/plans was really creeping up on me. Now I’ve experienced moments when I’m really thankful for just being alive and breathing

 

[Ecdysis]

Very happy for you @Hope2 !

I've had to stop my Ketamine treatment for 2 weeks because I had to go to hospital for surgery...

I'm curious how you're getting on growing the mushrooms? I plan on buying a self-grower kit too and wonder how easy/ complicated it will be

 

[Hope2]

Very happy for you @Hope2 !

I've had to stop my Ketamine treatment for 2 weeks because I had to go to hospital for surgery...

I'm curious how you're getting on growing the mushrooms? I plan on buying a self-grower kit too and wonder how easy/ complicated it will be

Thank you Ecdysis

I’m really thankful for every little step of improvement. I ordered fresh vacuum packed truffles and a growkit from Holland (I’m in Europe). I’ve been taking the truffles all this time and tried to grow my own mushrooms in the meantime. I’ve waited more than 2 weeks with the grow kit and nothing… Thought it was dead so I ordered another kit. Then from nowhere it suddenly grown a bunch of mushrooms in different sizes. I’ve gotten help from an experienced user for all my questions and when to harvest, dry, store etc.. Really has helped me in that regard.

It wasn’t that difficult but it’s really important to wash your hands/arms, use nitril gloves and hand sanitizer because the grow kit can easily gets contaminated. After you harvest you want to dry them andd grind them. I used my owen on lowest heat now but still burned a few so I’ve ordered a food dehydrator for next time.

I’m happy to forward you to the guy that helped me out over on Reddit. They’re very helpful in their sub “microdosing”.

 

[Ecdysis]

I’m happy to forward you to the guy that helped me out over on Reddit. They’re very helpful in their sub “microdosing”.

Hi, yes please, that would be great

 

[Hope2]

Hi, yes please, that would be great

Is it possible to send a DM on this forum?

 

[Ecdysis]

Hi, no, no DMs here.

You can email me.
If that's any use...?

 

[Hope2]

Okay I send you an email just now Did you receive it?

 

[Ecdysis]

I'm in town at the moment and can't check that email account on my phone... I'll check as soon as I get home.

Thanks

 

[Hope2]

It’s been a few weeks since I updated. Since then my progress has changed direction. I don’t know if I’ve build up tolerance or if the dosing isn’t right but I’ve started to feel worse and worse with more depression along with more armoring and muscle tightness, leading to more stress, hypervigilance and helpless feeling. And my sleep is only about max 4-5h every night so it doesn’t help either.

I’ll try to take a break and see if it’ll reset the system a bit before I start again, and then maybe even lower dose. I really hope it doesn’t just quit working on me, I gain so much hope to finally find something helping after 20 years of battling this illness. Now everything feels all black and impossible again.

 

[Ecdysis]

Hi @Hope2

Sorry you're struggling with it!

Coincidentally, I had my first "negative" Ketamine session today (I just updated the other thread).

I'm so grateful to have trained professionals accompanying me on my treatment journey... and helping me to make informed decisions... I'd honestly be lost trying to work it out on my own...

Thankfully, my experience today was only uncomfortable - not quite a "bad trip" - and I ended up feeling like negative feelings are a valid part of life too.

I wonder if that's something to explore... which part is depression and which is "just" negative feelings... because obviously, Ketamine, Psilocybin, etc can't (and shouldn't) make all negative feelings go away...

Also, whatever "fuels" or "feeds" our depression - I think those are things that we have to work on (maybe in a therapy context, or self-help context, or whatever)... For example, if someone's in a bad relationship or works in a toxic work environment and those things are fuelling a depression, then I don't think any substance will magically make the depression go away, if you don't also change the situation (like relationship/ work, in this example)...

Taking a break and then starting again with the Psilocybin sounds like a good idea and I'd also recommend looking at the other aspects.

Are there any external or internal things that may have contributed to a darkening of your mood?

Either way, I hope you can get out of this spiral and find some ease and relief again soon...