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[Ocean5]

we have to pretend so much to get by that it is exhausting

That is for sure...

 

[Anarchy]

Welcome to the forum
Like you, I only realised after about half a century of living it. It had been suggested a few years before, but I wasn't ready to accept it as true.

I've been coming here for about 18 months now. Learned a huge amount.
There are people here 24/7 who really know what it's like.

 

[Doublemintgum]

Welcome to the forum
Like you, I only realised after about half a century of living it. It had been sugg...

Nice. Thanks so much for telling me that. It's pretty incredible how we can go on for years but like you said not being ready is a strong deterrent. But what can you do, if you are somehow muddling through no one else sees how bad it is either. Almost like a catch 21. Thanks goodness we are seeing it now. Some never do and continue alone in that pain. A part of me knew at an early age (i'm thinking late teens) that things weren't right with me, in me, but i just kept faking it. A big part of that for me was that I wasn't prepared to risk what I thought was the inevitable total rejection if I let my secrets out and let it be real. And, I always thought "who would want me if I am that ill". So instead I just chose relationships that were really bad for me! lol!!! I couldn't even risk letting myself fully know. I'm on hiatus from relationships now for.....um....lets say maybe till I'm 75?! :coldfeet: ha

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Welcome to the forums!

Just gettin around to introductions now

Good to read a bit :hug:

I hope it goes well for you