My Mexican Boyfriend

[Noa]

I started to get ptsd symptoms after my last visit to Israel. I live in Canada and had no one to help me. Civilian therapists are pathetic here.

When I lived in Israel the Palestinians blew up buses and any place where many people gathered. So, my main challenge was travelling.

When I got ptsd, I recruited my Mexican boyfriend at the time to help, against his will. He didn't get it. Not sure if he even knows where Israel is. He'd go with me on the Subway (Metro). My heart would be beating fast, I thought I was going to pass out. He held my hand, but didn't understand anything. That was a few years ago. I looked at his facebook page, looks like he's married now.
just thought I'd share something I went through....

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am so sad you went through that experience. The horror and terror you must know. I am glad nothing bad happened to you though. I am glad you survived it. I wonder how you are doing with traveling now. I think you said you take the bus. How is that working out for you?

 

[Noa]

Thank you for caring, it means a lot to me. I can take buses locally, especially routes that I'm used to. I can never take a bus to another town, where I'd feel trapped. I can't drive now, so, my other option is flying.

I'm going to Cuba for 2 weeks in October. I want to go hiking with hiking groups here, but I'm worried that I'll get too anxious during the trip. Its frustrating. The worst part was not having anyone to talk to about this. I finally got through to an Matal - an Israeli help line, they want to help and gave me an 800 number in Israel, not sure how I can call from here.... and of course I can't visit Israel any more. I would never get on buses there and the flight is too long.