My War...

[digger]

my kind of war can take a toll and give me PTSD

psychological war with society is just as traumatic as physical or war torn trauma's

War is standing up for who or what you believe in..

war is like the world you knew outside doesn't exist anymore

It would seem to me that war is different things to different people. It is personal to the individual. You may not recognise your own war or battle in another person's words but that doesn't mean their war is any more or less significant than your own. You could be battling the same war and still come out with different interpretations of it.

Focusing on the things that connect us is more important surely than on the things that separate us. All of us here on this site are fighting our own individual battles. But fighting them gives us the insight and empathy to be able to support other in their fights even if we can't ever fully understand them because they are outside of our personal experience.

And just to note there is more than one dictionary definition of war too.
war(wôr)
n.
1.
a. A state of open, armed, often prolonged conflict carried on between nations, states, or parties.
b. The period of such conflict.
c. The techniques and procedures of war; military science.
2.
a. A condition of active antagonism or contention: a war of words; a price war.
b. A concerted effort or campaign to combat or put an end to something considered injurious: the war against acid rain.

 

[Barconian]

Yugogypsy war is like the world you knew outside doesn't exist anymore. I have a hard time with anger too. I think yesterday I got set off by the word.

"Crap" Everyone here is here for the same reason... People need to be able to express their experiences the way they see them themselves! Leave it be

 

[Yugogypsy]

If a human gets raped, that's war. I've never been raped. I'm not allowed to join the military. God bless those who went into the military to fight for something they believe in and get killed in the process. I feel that some out there thinks that military war is more valuable than my kind of war, war of words, war of languages, war of cultural differences and war of perspectives.

I have a feeling that anger from a woman isn't appropriate. I've been told that it's not "pretty"... I've been told this by my own mother which I felt it isn't appropriate to suppress anger.. It's ok to express anger and my mother disagreed. She'll say it's how it's done that's not "appropriate" and I'm supposed to be "good Deaf girl" with a pat on my head, sit in the corner looking "beautiful"... How about you using anger to kill someone? (Sorry if I caused another PTSD episode for those who read this). Anger is one of the many emotions that one have to go through to come out of war. Sadness is another. And a number of other emotions, positive and negative, is what makes us human. To tell me not to express any negative emotions is to tell me that I'm not human "enough" to have a place where I can express myself. I'm human first. Then a Deaf woman second.

Sorry if I come across as "angry" or you're not used to "anger" from a Deaf woman. I'm speaking from the human heart. You have to go through all these negative emotions to come out good. It's not healthy to suppress the negatives when a human feels the need to express themselves. If this post makes it all worse for others, I will remove myself and find another way to express myself.

 

[digger]

I will remove myself

I hope you stay.

 

[novemberDark]

That's probably what I did yesterday.

 

[rightkindofme]

I will remove myself and find another way to express myself.

Please, please stay. From one angry woman to another: you are allowed to be here. We want you.

 

[novemberDark]

I hope you stay, I'm an idiote I believe stuff. I get mad sometimes just 1 thing and boom. I know where there is anger there is fear. I get afraid just like that just as I get angry.

 

[novemberDark]

I believe its good to fight, I'm just lost in the what for.

 

[Yugogypsy]

Good to fight but not good to fight for too long considering my position. I love this quote from the "Dolphin Song" by Olivia Newton-John... You can read the rest of the lyric on the web.. Dolphins are my favorite animal... I studied them... They may look peaceful and beautiful but they do kill.. You gotta take in the ugly and the beauty.. I hope it's ok to quote a part of the song here as long as I name the writer or who ever wrote the song...

If I can only help to right a wrong
With my dolphin song
Then I'll have done what I set out to do
If I can only make one man aware
One person care
Then I'll have done what I promised you

Yes, I know she's from Australia.

 

[Yugogypsy]

Ok, I have to venture out of my home to fight a war with my hearing non signing lawyers this afternoon. PTSD triggers? I'll leave that question mark up in the air. I'll probably be exhausted emotionally at the end of the day. Just FYI and see what happens.

 

[novemberDark]

Glad you posted on here again. I was worried that you would go away because of my reaction to your post( flattering myself for being that bad).
I did not set out to offend you.
It a crazy thing I put out to others (mostly those really strong) what I am really saying to myself and it hurts others, that's why I seclude a lot, until i get the hang of stop.

 

[novemberDark]

Good luck with the law case, i hope this hole thread thing did not draw out energy from you to go out there and go for it.