Nervous - random and impulsive thoughts and images in my head

[Pauline]

Hi guys I'm writing because I'm quite nervous over the past few days I've been having random graphic thoughts and images in my head and they seem quite impulsive I took myself home but I don't want to tell my parents I'm nervous because I have overdosed before but this time I don't want to hurt myself so I don't know where this is coming from I have a therapy appointment tomorrow I tried to cancel on her but then reconsidered I want to tell her but I don't know her that well and don't trust her enough to help me I just want the images to go away because they are disturbing me my body is exhausted and worn out and all I want to do is nothing and lye in bed everything is really exhausting I tried to take myself on a long walk today but that was tiring too does anyone have any advice on how to get rid of the graphic images I won't describe them on here as they will probably be to triggering for people but I really need some help X

 

[Invisible Rose]

I am sorry you are feeling this way. Know that you are not alone. I think you are brave for putting posting how you feel.

 

[somerandomguy]

Those images going through your brain? They aren't real. They are disturbing as hell, no doubt, but they are only thoughts. They aren't going to happen, and you aren't a bad person for having those thoughts.

I think if you can possibly just think of those thoughts as something your brain is just doing right now, you might feel a little better. Lots of us have those thoughts and have learned that we don't have to talk back to them. We don't have to acknowledge them at all. We can just let them go. I know that's difficult, but until you can let your therapist know about them - and I really, really urge you to try to make it to your appointment and then let your therapist know about these thoughts if you can - it might help just to think about them as something your brain is doing on its own.

It sucks. But you're not the only one. And it doesn't mean anything is wrong or that you're messed up. It's just something that happens sometimes.

 

[Abstract]

You are welcome to post the about the images if you want Pauline. Members are responsible for keeping themselves safe. Im really sorry you feel that way.
No need to answer but are they images and intrusive thoughts to do with suicide and depression? What type of support do you think you meed if you were in am ideal world.What is setting off these feelings for you.

 

[grit]

One time (and I am sorry if I shared this before) I was watching a weird NZ movie on netflix and it was really disturbing and I must have been so tender because honestly I was scared like a child. Then all of sudden, I said out loud that I am OK. It is just a movie. I am not being hit or beaten or bitten and honestly I felt like I was talking to a child and literaly, the feeling stopped.

I do not know if this will work or not but I hope you can use a soothing tone and talk to your inner child part as if you were talking to you when you were a child or a child you truly love today (like a niece or nephew) and just use the words I am Ok and these are just memories in my mind. I am safe (if you are of course), I am just scared by my mom is just in the living room and I am OK or something like that and is true for you. It is weird when the side of the brain talks to other one with compassion.

Please take care of yourself.