New On Here I Suffer From Ptsd

[Chris686]

Great to see everyone's posts on PTSD. My name is Chris. I have ptsd since fall 2010.

My son died tragically in summer 2010 he was 22 months old. His story was all over the media in canada and Saskatchewan. Media and news all all over it for 3 years now since the women responsible for his death was through the courts etc.

I went back to work 1 week after he passed and I worked hard for 3 months when I noticed the Symptom's of PTSD. Took me another 6 months of that to finaly notice that I have this it was a living hell I couldn't get out of bed beaches memory loss fatigue depression I seen doctor after doctor taken every pill therapy and did acupuncture. You name it.

Now I eat healthy and have panick attacks once a week maybe twice but I live with the nightmare of my sons tragic death everyday I suffer from headaches and nausea and I can't take stress well or learn ( I quite univeriaty twice in 2 years work is hard) I have a difficult time learning and memory. I'm former changed. In 2012 I have a hard fall on ice and suffered a 6 month concussion and added more hard symtomps to my pats but I recovered from the post concussions syndrome but my ptsd is daily thing. How long will ptsd any suggestions

I gained and lost 30-40 pounds ever 6-7 months due to mess I want to be a vegan be healthy do yoga meditate and be more sport alley I'm married now wth 3 kids but can't find a career due to my ptsd I lost my dream job cause my pats got on the way and I was the lowest I every been when I lost it but I'm learning to adjust any suggestions how to overcome this or any advice.

I'm 31 years old living with PTSD loss of my son tragically. When he died I didn't sleep for a week and lost the taste in my mouth for 2 weeks I don't know if it's from the shock why I lost all Tatar of everything during his death ?!

 

[franciemarnie]

I am so very sorry for your indescribably heart breaking loss.

If you are not seeing a trauma therapist now, would you please look into it so you can start processing and releasing the tremendous emotional energy that is inside and manifests in your symptoms?

You are having a normal response to an abnormal situation. You must find healing and never give up.

I am glad you found the forum. Welcome.

 

[nursenurse]

I am just so heartbroken for you. No one should ever live to see their child die. You are among friends here. Take things slowly, one step at a time. You will come out of this, but you need to be gentle and kind to yourself first, and that means taking care of what's inside and the outside.

Do you have a formal diagnosis of PTSD? Psychiatrists and medications are helpful, but I believe a decent therapist also needs to be integrated in your care, if you haven't found one already. Are there any bereavement groups you could access as well? You are not alone and, welcome.

 

[arfie]

My own cPTSD pre-dates my cognitive memory, but a tendency to starve myself is a very solid component of it. I have been life-threateningly underweight most of my life. Not a fashion thing. My taste buds seem to disconnect when I am stressed out. Force feed me and I will only taste the bile coming up from my own stomach. Been done. That bile really is acidic.

Could this be what you are experiencing with your food intake? If so, I am truly sorry.

Welcome to the forum, Chris. Sorry for what brings you here but glad you are here.
Healing happens. May it happen to you.

 

[The Albatross]

Welcome Chris and congratulations on your health goals. I expect it is hard to determine at times what is grief, what is PTSD and what may be the residual from the concussion injury.

I smiled a little when I read the efforts you have taken... I too had/have the "throw everything at the wall and see what sticks method". But take heart, you have demonstrated proactivity and a willingness to initiate change, that is a big key component in recovery and healing.

 

[HOPEFULHEART82]

Welcome Chris, Welcome , Welcome. I am truly sorry for your loss, and am happy that you are trying to heal. I have experienced some of the things you have said, which help me to recognize other areas of my life that are affected. I think you should definitely find an awesome therapist that can help you professionally and engage on this forum more. I have found such a wealth of support here, that I often regret in true survivor fashion not finding it sooner. lol.

 

[Chris686]

Thanks everyone for the advice I never talked to anyone who has ptsd like I do. I learning to live with it and how to manage the symtomps before it was depressing living with the symtomps and the trauma. I want to live healthy and learn more about ptsd and healthier ways to cope. I will for sure look for therapy and apply myself to it.

 

[DMerish]

Hi Chris,

I was sorry to hear of your son's death, the court ordeal, and your fall.

I'm glad you're committed to finding a good therapist. You'll find lots of informative resources on this site and some of the nicest, people anywhere who will help to support you along your journey. Welcome to the forum.

Drew