Hello my name is rose and I joined this site to maybe get some different viewpoints and advice on what I can do in my situation. I'm so utterly sick and exhausted of living like this. It's not fair to the people I love and care about either.
I was diagnosed at 17 with bipolar and ptsd. ive attempted several times to get help but something ALWAYS happens(lose appointments, no tranportation,phone misplaced or stolen,have to abruptly move out of Residence ,sleep all day up all night)I deal with ups and downs, flashbacks, impulsive actions, random bouts of anger, an unhealthy obsession with dying,sleep issues, socialization problems, and fear of driving every single day for as long as I can think back.
I had a case worker assigned when I was 18 to help with everything but at the time I was in a highly abusive relationship and my ex didn't want them in the house. Iam 21 years old and I have no medical insurance. Year by year it seems to be getting harder and harder to cope with everything. It's so exhausting trying to deal with this internal struggle and lead a normal functioning adult life as that's all I've ever wanted.
I have a wonderful boyfriend of 2 years that deals with my crazy like an angel but I just can't bring myself to tell him everything that goes through my crazy head. I need and want help but I feel I am my own worst enemy. Anything you have to say, I'm open to any suggestions at thins point.
All my thanks-
Rosemarie
I was diagnosed at 17 with bipolar and ptsd. ive attempted several times to get help but something ALWAYS happens(lose appointments, no tranportation,phone misplaced or stolen,have to abruptly move out of Residence ,sleep all day up all night)I deal with ups and downs, flashbacks, impulsive actions, random bouts of anger, an unhealthy obsession with dying,sleep issues, socialization problems, and fear of driving every single day for as long as I can think back.
I had a case worker assigned when I was 18 to help with everything but at the time I was in a highly abusive relationship and my ex didn't want them in the house. Iam 21 years old and I have no medical insurance. Year by year it seems to be getting harder and harder to cope with everything. It's so exhausting trying to deal with this internal struggle and lead a normal functioning adult life as that's all I've ever wanted.
I have a wonderful boyfriend of 2 years that deals with my crazy like an angel but I just can't bring myself to tell him everything that goes through my crazy head. I need and want help but I feel I am my own worst enemy. Anything you have to say, I'm open to any suggestions at thins point.
All my thanks-
Rosemarie
