Morningfire
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Hi all,
I new to all this and it is very unlike me to type up my thoughts and problems to a world strangers. I'm hoping this will help me unload and maybe assist with recovery.
I have been recently diagnosed with PTSD and currently waiting for my first bouts of CBT. It all start when I began waking in the morning feeling like I was on fire. My hairs stood on end and I was breathing like I'd just ran 100meters. I just felt a sense of dread that something bad was going to happen to me that day. This happened to me on and off for a period of two years.
I had regular chest pains and then I began having occasional nightmares about things I had seen at work which then began slowly turning into daydreams which I could not stop.
I knew I had a problem but chose to ignore it until I couldn't anymore as the thoughts were torture. I attended a particularly bad road accident just prior to my diagnosis which seemed to bring on the symptoms much stronger.
I've been a emergency works for almost 10 years and I didn't think anything could bother me.
I now hate disorderly situations and car accidents. They cause me to feel panicked and unable to fully operate. I'm also starting fear crowds and I'm scared that this illness may cause me to quit my job which is my lively hood. I can't seem to stop thinking about incidents of fear and injury.
I also feel false I seem to be able to hide this at work and I think if any of colleagues knew the truth they would be shocked but at home it's a different matter. Some days I don't want to get out of bed and when sat at home all I do is think and it gets worse. I feel like two people. I have lost 10kg in weight in two months.
Is there anyone else to which this sounds similar but who has made a full recovery or is this something that now has scarred me which I have to carry forever.
Thank you for taking time to read my story.
I new to all this and it is very unlike me to type up my thoughts and problems to a world strangers. I'm hoping this will help me unload and maybe assist with recovery.
I have been recently diagnosed with PTSD and currently waiting for my first bouts of CBT. It all start when I began waking in the morning feeling like I was on fire. My hairs stood on end and I was breathing like I'd just ran 100meters. I just felt a sense of dread that something bad was going to happen to me that day. This happened to me on and off for a period of two years.
I had regular chest pains and then I began having occasional nightmares about things I had seen at work which then began slowly turning into daydreams which I could not stop.
I knew I had a problem but chose to ignore it until I couldn't anymore as the thoughts were torture. I attended a particularly bad road accident just prior to my diagnosis which seemed to bring on the symptoms much stronger.
I've been a emergency works for almost 10 years and I didn't think anything could bother me.
I now hate disorderly situations and car accidents. They cause me to feel panicked and unable to fully operate. I'm also starting fear crowds and I'm scared that this illness may cause me to quit my job which is my lively hood. I can't seem to stop thinking about incidents of fear and injury.
I also feel false I seem to be able to hide this at work and I think if any of colleagues knew the truth they would be shocked but at home it's a different matter. Some days I don't want to get out of bed and when sat at home all I do is think and it gets worse. I feel like two people. I have lost 10kg in weight in two months.
Is there anyone else to which this sounds similar but who has made a full recovery or is this something that now has scarred me which I have to carry forever.
Thank you for taking time to read my story.
