No One Ever Said Therapy Was Easy!

[krystina]

I have been going to therapy for over a year and it took me more than half a year to actually say what happened to me. Sounds ridiculous, but it took me that long. Anyway, lately a lot of memories and flash backs have been haunting me and they won't leave me a lone, not even when I am sleeping. When I am sleeping I get horrible dreams that a guy is sexually abusing my sisters and I. I have been going to my school counselor for the last two weeks trying to get some help, but because we are in a school setting I haven't been able to get all the help I could get with my real counselor. I have cried the last two times I have seen my school counselor and she has been having me draw in markers my feelings and doing this really helps. I didn't think it would but it has so I am still doing that. She tells me that I need to see my real counselor weekly and I am going to have to tell my parents about this even though it will be hard to. I had three tests yesterday and two today and I can barely concetrate and unlike lilstar I have a really hard time doing well when I can't concentrate especially when I can't get the memories from coming back. I understand that therapy isn't easy but can't there be some way for me to be able to get rid of these memories and just be able to concentrate?

 

[krystina]

Going to die on Monday yikes!
I have to go to my therapist and I am supposed to hand her an envelope of everything me and my school therapist have gone through the last two weeks.

 

[Nyx]

I understand that therapy isn't easy but can't there be some way for me to be able to get rid of these memories and just be able to concentrate?

Yes there is a way. Going to therapy and working as hard as you can on your issues. Didn't expect that, did you? :p

Just hang on a bit longer, you'll get there. You just have to continue with therapy and continue work. If drawing helps, then draw every time you feel you are overwhelmed. Make an album of drawings and share them when you go to therapy. I write, it helps more. And then I take it and read it to my T. Next week I'll even make a selection from my diary here and take it to her. The idea is that you have to get it out if you want to be able to concentrate.

Take care :hug:

 

[cherryblossom]

You should stop having these memories, flashbacks and nightmares, once you have removed all the negative emotions from these events. Often therapy makes things worse before it gets better. Hang in there and you will eventually see that all your hard work will pay off, and the intrusive thoughts begin to be less and less, and then disappear completely. You may still have thoughts, because this isn't about erasing your memory, but they shouldn't be so upsetting or all consuming.