Numb and detached/dissociated

[Kieran]

Hey guys,

I hope you're all doing well. :)

Things haven't been looking so well for me lately. It's been a tough month for me, being the "anniversary" of when my abuser did what he did to me.

Lately, especially in the past month, it's like.... I can't explain it. I feel detached. Like I'm just an empty shell, a body that exists. It's hard for me to feel anything. Most of all, though, it's making it really hard for me to know who I am. It's like I don't know who I am anymore, outside of what happened to me.

It's like... my body, somewhere deep down "feels" emotions, but I can't quite feel anything. Does that make sense? Does anyone else feel like this? Feeling everything yet nothing at all.

I don't know how to get back to the part of myself that enjoyed being alive. I don't know how to get myself out of this confusing time in my life, so if anyone has ideas or experiences something similar to the things explained above, I'd appreciate hearing thoughts.

 

[EveHarrington]

Anniversaries can spike symptoms for many of us. Your mind may not feel safe so numbness has taken over. For me it’s a matter of making myself feel safe again so that I start feeling again. Please be gentle with yourself.