Sufferer Nun With 130 IQ and No Family Confronting Cyclical Cultural Neglect/Gaslighting

[Hermitess_Nun_N.H.]

I can't be the compassionate Face of St. Mary to a people who a people here in the USA who only speak english 50% , scream at me on the phone when I'm looking for work, and try to stuff me with bread and tea on Sundays when I've told them darn good and well that I'm diabetic. I don't need their stinking funky psychological garbage and their covert excuses when I show up in front of their faces. The thing about not being able to earn money properly while in community with them is absolutely malignant. Pearls thrown before swine. God get me out of here and help me take the journey to where I actually need to be whether people along the way "like hearing it" or not!!!!!

 

[HomelessJoe]

America has been greatly disconnected in recent years. I'm sorry you got to deal with the pettiness of peoples complaints. Life on the high ground can feel low. The country is corrupted with hate. Makes it hard to keep faith. Don't lose faith wanting a claimer more polite community means your good. Remain good. We need more of good in this world.

 

[Hermitess_Nun_N.H.]

Thank you so much its replies like that that can keep me prepared for a different pool of people

 

[Friday]

Aloha! Welcome to the community!

God get me out of here and help me take the journey to where I actually need to be whether people along the way "like hearing it" or not!!!!!

What kind of climate do you like best? Where could you be thrilled to simply… be alive… without any people, at all? Just you, in the world. Mountains? Tropics? Island? Plains? Bayou? Forest?

Take that answer, then add it to “culture”/the background noise of people; and find a wedge, a carrot …to approach the archdiocese &/or other appropriate authorities with.

As… if you’re MISERABLE here, and clearly not called to be a martyr? You’re being called elsewhere. Find it. And find a way to make the people with budgets & human concerns, think it’s a good idea to send you there. If you can’t convince the bureaucrats? Call on friends, call in favours, take action to get you to where you feel you need to be.

My o.o2.

 

[Survivor3]

Hello @NicholaHekma welcome to the site .

 

[PlainJane]

Welcome :)

 

[Mach123]

I can't be the compassionate Face of St. Mary to a people who a people here in the USA who only speak english 50% , scream at me on the phone when I'm looking for work, and try to stuff me with bread and tea on Sundays when I've told them darn good and well that I'm diabetic. I don't need their stinking funky psychological garbage and their covert excuses when I show up in front of their faces. The thing about not being able to earn money properly while in community with them is absolutely malignant. Pearls thrown before swine. God get me out of here and help me take the journey to where I actually need to be whether people along the way "like hearing it" or not!!!!!

Isolation works for me but I understand not everyone’s situation allows for it . Naturally I’d prefer detachment so I could manage people better. I try and not let them make me feel like I should be someone else and I try and leave them alone too.

 

[Hermitess_Nun_N.H.]

Aloha! Welcome to the community!


What kind of climate do you like best? Where could you be thrilled to simply… be alive… without any people, at all? Just you, in the world. Mountains? Tropics? Island? Plains? Bayou? Forest?

Take that answer, then add it to “culture”/the background noise of people; and find a wedge, a carrot …to approach the archdiocese &/or other appropriate authorities with.

As… if you’re MISERABLE here, and clearly not called to be a martyr? You’re being called elsewhere. Find it. And find a way to make the people with budgets & human concerns, think it’s a good idea to send you there. If you can’t convince the bureaucrats? Call on friends, call in favours, take action to get you to where you feel you need to be.

My o.o2.

Thank you so much, I am really so appreciative of the responses, is there a way to save memorable posts/threads?

Isolation works for me but I understand not everyone’s situation allows for it . Naturally I’d prefer detachment so I could manage people better. I try and not let them make me feel like I should be someone else and I try and leave them alone too.

Thank you for your kind reply; it's beyond me how they can go on year after year like this. At the end of the day, all I am is the person who winds up shooting off my mouth, because I've asked numerous times to be "assigned" to a task so that I can distract myself and feel productive and HECCCCC if they act like they can never decide about that. So, then they lump me in with the group of 80 year old nuns who can't do anything physically. If I complain about beurocracy creeping in, I am gaslighted with "everyone is busy" and then a crowd of people who can't understand 50% of what I'm saying wander over as I continue my "rational oratory" in front of the one person who knows english 100% who has already spent 6 hours in church service, just ate lunch, and simply wants to go home with no problems on his hands. Yes, I actually have to write this out in order to examine this scenario like you would examine a "bad movie cut" in order to get out of the problem.

Welcome :)

 

[arfie]

hello nichola/hermit. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here, whether as an abused ex or an abused nun. either way, it is allot to sort. this is an excellent spot for the sorting.

your high IQ is the feature of this post which resonates with me. i share that trait and have had more than one therapist focus on the ways my high IQ creates additional problems in dealing with my recovery from child sex trafficking. the focus was highly theoretical and conjectural, but i do subscribe to the theories, especially in regards to self gaslighting.

i'm smart, but words for these theories still elude me. just casting my breads upon the water as a way to welcome you aboard.

welcome. hope healing happens here.