Old Self / New Self

[Life_in_the_Mist]

So, basically I feel like I had one identity, personality, "self" from birth until age 24, and then when some stressful things happened it was like a switch flipped. I felt my old self leave my body (very weird feeling) and over the next few weeks more and more of who I was seemed to leave, to get fogged out. This was three years ago. Now I am my "new self" a person with different beliefs, likes, interest, a person with 23 years of vague memories that seem like someone else's, a rebirth in the worst sense. I loved my old self. Sure, she was bitter and depressed, but she was also the creative intelligent one. I want her to come back, but I'm worried she is gone forever. When I look at my name, or my face in the mirror, I am confused as to who they belong to. Did anyone have an identity crisis like this? Did the old (real) self come back?

Oh, and just to add something, I do want my old self back, but when I sense her in my head she seems kind of dark and angry. I am scared of her...

 

[franciemarnie]

I know the feeling. I have a bunch of younger selves that split off and I don't necessarily mean DID. I can't go into it all right now but there are theories how to integrate split souls or however you want to describe it. I miss mine and am working on getting them back. I am safe now, but they are still stuck back in scary times.

They say they can return.

I feel for you though. It's not a good feeling to feel cut off from who you were.

More another time.

 

[mamachick]

Yes, I was a person that had overcome many obstacles but liked who I had become. Beginning with a head injury, then one thing after another, the real break happened dec. 2008. I have come to realize that she is gone forever. I have books and clothes and stuff that do not seem to belong to me. They do not interest me. They are not mine. It seems there is no motivation in me to fight for who I was or at least to become a functioning person. The old me would never have settled for this.

I am cut off from who I was completely. I just want this to end.