I am dealing with an overwhelming amount of stress from my home. We moved here less than 3 years ago. We had an inspection. Since then we have had 4 roof leaks, HVAC had to be replaced, toilet leaks, improper venting of dryer and bathroom exhaust fans, tub leaks and a kitchen faucet repair that cost $750. We have spent thousands of dollars to fix these problems. Just this year we have had at least 5 contractors out.
This week alone I have had to deal with four repairs. Some I did myself, which is exhausting and stressful too, but others we had to hire someone to do the work. Either way, I am the one making the calls, talking to these men, having them in my home, usually when my husband is either asleep or not at home.
Yesterday was the kitchen faucet repair. We had a leak, and I knew the faucet needed to be replaced. The plumber stood us up on Thursday, and came late yesterday. They arrived at 8:45 AM. To make a long story short, they didn't have the work complete until 5:30 PM. They had to come back two more times. Then I had to clean up the mess by myself too.
I didn't sleep well. I haven't slept well all week. I haven't had DID episodes in 8+ years, but I can feel myself beginning to unravel. I feel more and more numb. I am beginning to do things and not remember doing them. I am starting to lose small segments of time.
I don't know how to lighten the load. Our house feels like it's falling apart. I don't see an end in sight. Every few days or weeks there is something brand new and unexpected happening.
As I put in my introduction post, I am married to a man who has sexual abuse in his childhood too. So, the stresses of dealing with all these problems are falling on me. I have to be careful not to ask too much of him. He, however, is making slow progress in trying to become more available and participating in more than just decisions. I give him credit for that. But usually when he does help me, there is some type of acting out later. This causes even more stress for me and strains our relationship.
I also don't have any friends here, like I did where I used to live. I don't have anyone to turn to right now, which is adding to my fears and my feeling overwhelmed.
I have all kinds of grounding techniques, but right now, I am so tired and overwhelmed I don't have the energy.
I would love some input as to how I can manage going forward without regressing to a point where I can't function again.
This week alone I have had to deal with four repairs. Some I did myself, which is exhausting and stressful too, but others we had to hire someone to do the work. Either way, I am the one making the calls, talking to these men, having them in my home, usually when my husband is either asleep or not at home.
Yesterday was the kitchen faucet repair. We had a leak, and I knew the faucet needed to be replaced. The plumber stood us up on Thursday, and came late yesterday. They arrived at 8:45 AM. To make a long story short, they didn't have the work complete until 5:30 PM. They had to come back two more times. Then I had to clean up the mess by myself too.
I didn't sleep well. I haven't slept well all week. I haven't had DID episodes in 8+ years, but I can feel myself beginning to unravel. I feel more and more numb. I am beginning to do things and not remember doing them. I am starting to lose small segments of time.
I don't know how to lighten the load. Our house feels like it's falling apart. I don't see an end in sight. Every few days or weeks there is something brand new and unexpected happening.
As I put in my introduction post, I am married to a man who has sexual abuse in his childhood too. So, the stresses of dealing with all these problems are falling on me. I have to be careful not to ask too much of him. He, however, is making slow progress in trying to become more available and participating in more than just decisions. I give him credit for that. But usually when he does help me, there is some type of acting out later. This causes even more stress for me and strains our relationship.
I also don't have any friends here, like I did where I used to live. I don't have anyone to turn to right now, which is adding to my fears and my feeling overwhelmed.
I have all kinds of grounding techniques, but right now, I am so tired and overwhelmed I don't have the energy.
I would love some input as to how I can manage going forward without regressing to a point where I can't function again.
