I'm an LEO recently diagnosed and been in treatment for PTSD, extreme depresson, and insomnia. My incident occurred in a medical related setting. You are very brave for what you do and thank you for your service. I know we all joke around with each other but honestly I give you major credit. You deal with many things that I would not want to on a daily basis. The only advice I can give you at this point is get diagnosed and seek treatment. I also felt like it was pathetic I had to go online for someone to talk to about my problem but in all reality I can't tell any of my co workers about what's going on onviously due to the stigma and I feel like no one else understands. Here we do! Good luck and try to keep your head up! Hang in there!