Laurie2001
Confident
Hi guys,
I really need help on this. I feel my symptoms are just too out of control and am very despairing about getting better despite doing lots and lots of work. So I'm considering a planned hospitalization at Sheppard Pratt. I'm not even sure if they'll take me because it seems like you have to be pretty suicidal. I have recently cut - hardly, have SI but wouldn't do it. But have a ton of other symptoms.
Anyway, I really like what the program offers a lot. My main fear/terror is being locked up and not having control over my things - an my anxiety medication. I'm terrified of that. I'm not a material oriented person or a control freak. Its just the overall control factor. Can that in and of itself be damaging or traumatizing? Maybe as I say this now, the idea triggers not having control in bad situations when I was a kid.
Have others of you been there? Were the staff kind? If I get overwhelmed by everything and freak out emotionally because the lack of control is scaring me will they help me through it.
Thanks for your help because i know I can't go on like this and am feeling so hopeless, this seems like it could be really constructive, but as I said I'm terrified.
I really need help on this. I feel my symptoms are just too out of control and am very despairing about getting better despite doing lots and lots of work. So I'm considering a planned hospitalization at Sheppard Pratt. I'm not even sure if they'll take me because it seems like you have to be pretty suicidal. I have recently cut - hardly, have SI but wouldn't do it. But have a ton of other symptoms.
Anyway, I really like what the program offers a lot. My main fear/terror is being locked up and not having control over my things - an my anxiety medication. I'm terrified of that. I'm not a material oriented person or a control freak. Its just the overall control factor. Can that in and of itself be damaging or traumatizing? Maybe as I say this now, the idea triggers not having control in bad situations when I was a kid.
Have others of you been there? Were the staff kind? If I get overwhelmed by everything and freak out emotionally because the lack of control is scaring me will they help me through it.
Thanks for your help because i know I can't go on like this and am feeling so hopeless, this seems like it could be really constructive, but as I said I'm terrified.