So I was told that I am aloud to go to my high school prom! Hahaha! I couldn't believe it! But I was thankful at the same time. I just didn't think I was going to have a prom.
Anyway, it is on Friday (May 29th) and I wish I was going... I want to go so badly. I used to dream about going ever since I was a little girl. I remember begging my big brother to take me when he went! Haha! I was too young to understand at that point.
Unfortunatly, I'm not able to go. I can't bring myself to do it. When I was high school, I told my partner that I would like him to take me to prom. He promised me he would. It was going to be a very special night for us. We were both very excited. Till we had a rough patch... He had to have open heart surgery... There was a 50/50 chance he was going to pass on the table. So before he went into surgery, we were talking about our future plans. I told him that if he doesn't take me to prom then I'm not going. (I told him this as a "you have to get through this" statement). The last thing I said to him before he went into surgery was "If you die, I'll kill you....Love you!" LOL! Made him smile at least!
Anyway, he got through surgery okay. And when he healed up nicely everything was going great. Eventually we ended up talking about prom again. He promised me again that he'd take me. Well now...he isn't here to take me. I know he would want me to go but I couldn't go with anyone else nor would I even begin to have a good time knowing he is supposed to be there with me.
It just sucks because I know my only chance to go to prom is less than two days away... >.<
I miss you, baby. I love you!
Anyway, it is on Friday (May 29th) and I wish I was going... I want to go so badly. I used to dream about going ever since I was a little girl. I remember begging my big brother to take me when he went! Haha! I was too young to understand at that point.
Unfortunatly, I'm not able to go. I can't bring myself to do it. When I was high school, I told my partner that I would like him to take me to prom. He promised me he would. It was going to be a very special night for us. We were both very excited. Till we had a rough patch... He had to have open heart surgery... There was a 50/50 chance he was going to pass on the table. So before he went into surgery, we were talking about our future plans. I told him that if he doesn't take me to prom then I'm not going. (I told him this as a "you have to get through this" statement). The last thing I said to him before he went into surgery was "If you die, I'll kill you....Love you!" LOL! Made him smile at least!
Anyway, he got through surgery okay. And when he healed up nicely everything was going great. Eventually we ended up talking about prom again. He promised me again that he'd take me. Well now...he isn't here to take me. I know he would want me to go but I couldn't go with anyone else nor would I even begin to have a good time knowing he is supposed to be there with me.
It just sucks because I know my only chance to go to prom is less than two days away... >.<
I miss you, baby. I love you!
