Anonymous1
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Thanks, Bella, I can't tell you how long I've wondered about the tendency I have to feel 'not present' and actually feel invisible.
I think because my trauma happened at age 13 and NO ONE seemed to notice what a private HELL I was going through, that I began to believe that I didn't exist.
I would sometimes have to go out in the extreme cold just to make myself feel. Only my grandparents commented when they thought that I was asleep that they thought something was wrong with me because I seemed to have no energy.
Freaked me out. Someone was noticing but letting them in would totally blow my 'keeping it together' to not let anyone know that I'd totally lost my mind.
Yikes. Thanks for letting me dump, group. I'm now getting closer to 50 than 15! Amazing what the mind can do with so much pain, eh?
You all are amazing. I'm glad to have found this group.
Thanks, Bella, I can't tell you how long I've wondered about the tendency I have to feel 'not present' and actually feel invisible.
I think because my trauma happened at age 13 and NO ONE seemed to notice what a private HELL I was going through, that I began to believe that I didn't exist.
I would sometimes have to go out in the extreme cold just to make myself feel. Only my grandparents commented when they thought that I was asleep that they thought something was wrong with me because I seemed to have no energy.
Freaked me out. Someone was noticing but letting them in would totally blow my 'keeping it together' to not let anyone know that I'd totally lost my mind.
Yikes. Thanks for letting me dump, group. I'm now getting closer to 50 than 15! Amazing what the mind can do with so much pain, eh?
You all are amazing. I'm glad to have found this group.