Although didn't go into what I'd originally wrote, We still went into some stuff....so I don't feel like it was a wasted session or anything. I just wish I could be more open about what I need to be speaking about, the things that pop up sometimes and the things that snowball and keep snowballing but I'm not sure how that's going to work. It's like, I know I need to do it but I also know how hard its going to be to do and it's that....that's what makes me feel like I don't want to do it anymore....It's the thing of "it's going to get worse, before it gets better" but can we not just skip that part and just go straight to feeling better?! If only.....If only there was a magic wand! I remember therapist saying something about how, with the other therapists, I pull away before it gets difficult and I don't know.....I think that's what might be going on here but I don't want to do that again with this therapist because I do really like her.